Claire

2011-08-06T10:58:00.002+08:00

Is this regret or what?

Its been 2 weeks and I have been in the new company for say a week. What happens is i slacked through the 1 week of break?! haha! Generally i slept eat and watch TV. Without much disturbance. Oh yes, i went out with the les on monday! Awesome session but ate too much i would say. Met sam latter on and had a wonderful chatty session again.

Backtrack to the new company. So far not much work was given and i feel weird. I feel like a stranger to this place and indeed i am one. Oh well, I am starting to think of what the rest of the manpower has been telling me when i told them i joined Eureka. "Are you crazy" I am just sending a sheep into the lion's den:( AH! whatever, since that i am here. I should just preserve on and do the best out of it. Hope everything should go well and it would be a better world at the end of the days.

And i want to say something which most people will fuck me for. HAHA! i kinda miss unilever =/ OPS! oh wells. just because of the sense of belonging bah. Whatever. Prolly i am still new to eureka thats why.

Enough said of that. Like what cliff had told me... Just be happy and your days would pass easier in eureka. Thats right. I should enjoy my weekends and forget all about work that is(:

I secretly hope for a session to MBS =/ Dear would kill me for saying this. Oh wells. ok he wouldnt. He will just simply give in BUT keep on grumbling after that. HAHAH! I know we are suppose to stop all this extravagant and start saving up for our house:( AH! for the sake of the walk-in wardrope he promise me. I shall just bare with it for now! hehehe

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Like i mention in my previous post (i did, did i?), i am getting my own domain and transferring this blog over. er... I have started on it but the web look havent been finalised. So guys, just give me a few more weekends and it should be up(: STAY TUNE!

2011-07-15T17:17:00.003+08:00

Freaking annoyed.

I seriously don't understand why certain decisions can't be changed and why that things are so inflexible. So freaking annoyed by all this nuisance and all the plain stupidity!!! OMfg:( I am so so so pissed off and antagonized! :(:(:( Totally hate the incompetence!

Its one week to the departure and YET so many unsolved issues. And best of all, I am so involved with it. Godammit! He simply can't comprehend the word "alternative"!!! Why so rigid?!

I was all sulky and moodless to do anything after the call. Hate the way things have to be right now. Won't they just spare me and give me peace even just a week before i leave?! What's worst? Asking me to come back after office hour to help out?! Oh so sorry that i dont do charity work! And all authorities have been taken away in SAP T-codes. seriously, tell me whats worst than all this!

And whats the last thing i can do? Just laugh it off. DAMM! Doesn't all this seems so IMPRESSIVE?! HAHA!

Well oh wells. definitely u can see that today's not a very good day. With the stormy day and continuous pour since morning, my mood is kind of dampen. Jacq and lwl will be dropping by my workplace later and I SERIOUSLY HOPE that this will at least blow those gloomy clouds away:(

Till then, ciaos.

2011-07-14T12:55:00.003+08:00

Shopaholic

Bought a new novel yesterday, adding on to my collections. I enjoy reading those novels but i am awe by how i can finish up each novel so fast. Than again, i always have difficulty starting on a new one immediately cause my thoughts always still lingers around the previous one.

Boyf had nights out yesterday and so we met at bugis for dinner. Pastamania:) My fav chicken cheese salsicia penne with tomato cream sauce. Awesome! Strolled around and ended up in honeymoon dessert. I ordered my usual, grassjelly with vanilla sauce topped with macha ice cream. Boyf ordered this watermelon beancurd which tasted aweful:(

Me: dear, dont eat la. u can hv mine, i cant finish.
Boyf: nvm la. *continues his aweful beancurd with a moody face and pouts his mouth*
Me: *Shove a mouthful of macha icecream with vanilla sauce into his mouth*
Boyf: *Gives a wide smile* I AM HAPPIER NOW:D

HAHAH. Seriously, sometimes i just cant help it but wants to hug him tightly. His kiddish self never fail to make me love him even more! another epic one in our sms.

Me: what you doing?!
Boyf: Just finish gyming. Drinking my milk milk.
Me: Good! Grow BIG BIG SIZE!
Boyf: You think i am your tamaguchi?

Thats how all this minor stuff makes my day(:

Life's not gonna be easy coming forth. With my job hour unstable and him flying thai for one month. I hope we will be able to hold on tight and walk this path tgt:D JIA JIA YOU<3

Anyway, we headed to kinokuniya ltr on and stayed for almost an hour. I bought a new novel whereas he bought a self enrichment book. And we parted at the station going either ways.Thats the reason why I hate nights out. Cause we always have to part after that.

2011-07-10T11:50:00.002+08:00

Fell in love with yesterday

You do not need a well planned out exciting day or shop til you drop session to enjoy your weekend. Went to sentosa for a relaxation with the boyf. It was speechless. The happiness i feel, the love i got was 'no words can describe'.

Evening breeze, gorgeous sunset. I was at maximus happiness. My love for the beach, the sunset and the sea breeze can never be explained. This is where I truly belong. Under the sun, along with the breeze i dance. I miss all those tanning sessions, volleyball leagues.

Never can i explain how wonderful this feeling is and i truly enjoyed myself. Be it whether its a fun day out with the clique or just an evening stroll hands in hands with the boyf, i hearts it all. I felt a tinge of happiness whenever my feet lands on the beautiful white sand. Calmness overwhelmed me listening to the waves crushing against the rocks at the shore. I was a little happy girl.

The boyf was feeling a little unwell but yet he insisted we should head there knowing i've been wanting to. I felt so bad seeing him so sickly yet insisting so hard. So much so i wrapped my hands around him and was unwilling to let go of him. I said " i am not letting you FLY". He replied " i will never silly". I am so loved. His the one who gives in ten steps when i take one step forward. He is the one who knows me so well i never had to speak a word to tell him wat i want. He is the one who puts me at the top of his world and even before him. I love him all.

Our plan is right on track and though we are still meeting obstacles here and there, we manage to hurdle across and come this far. Although we have to bare with the ruthless comments of others, we hold on tight and walked down this tough path. I know that you always despise on us but we will prove you wrong. I know we will cause we hold on this tight till now and we are on the way on our plan. I know we can cause we have given up so much things just for this plan. We have managed to prevent ourselves on splurging on stuff that is un-needed just for this plan. We will get it. Soon.

Unhappiness aside. I have 2 more weeks with U and my journey there will come to a fullstop. It has been a journey which i have learnt alot. Be it in terms of accounting knowledge or interpersonal skills, i have greatly advanced. Although this departure might not be approved or well-seen by all. I promise myself and the boyf i will prove all that i made the right decision. I know Eureka will bring me along and to a higher level in life.

I know that life's not gonna be easy for the next 1 or 2 years till boyf settled down with an income that can support us through. And mean time, i will work hard. For our future that is.

Alright. Thats about it, enjoy your last few hours of the precious weekends! Ciaos.

2011-07-09T19:54:00.003+08:00

Second home(:

Along with the evening breeze and the gorgeous sunset, we strolled hands in hands. No tanning or any exotic activities. Just pure relaxation and a calming stroll along the seaside. No matter how or what, i always feel so good when i am here in sentosa. It feels like a second home. I think this is where and i belong. Not a refine lady but an outgoing enthusiatic beach lover(: i should like be who i am and tan like how i use to.

Many fond memoriea with the love in sentosa. Shall write more with the pictures back home tonight! Enjoy the evening! Ciao.

2011-07-07T08:57:00.002+08:00

12 Working days :)

I think i need a better bloggy space. We created one for our travelogue and i am inspired to make one for myself.

To write down all my memories and keepstake of photos. Give me a suggestions of address name pls:)

Doodled.

2011-07-04T18:02:00.002+08:00

One last

Like smearing my own face with my own shit, i have beg to differ my earlier post. I thought about this whole thing the whole afternoon. And i reason the whole thing out with one last conclusion. I left cause of people and not entirely work. Yes, work is stressful and loading. But i seriously cant take further shit from the people who are entirely dishonest, despicable and not trust-worthy. I know i am wrong in the first place to place my whole shit trust on you but little did i know that things are way worst than I thought it was.

Its super ridiculous of all the tales you have told!!! and its even more ludicrous when you thought that you are on the top of the world controlling every matter WHEN we ALL know every details of the ugly truth. I dont think you will feel any sense of guilt when you come to realise that 2 fine people left cause of you. I dont even think the guilt will reach your heart anyway.

And this is life, society, work. I know I will meet all these obstacles but i never thought it would come this close. But i was more fortunate than the others i would say. I hope to let you know, in this world, there is a thing call karma! I dont hope it will befall on you but i hope you can realise that we ALL know what you have been up to and you will correct yourself from there!

2011-06-24T14:26:00.002+08:00

Pocket Full of Sunshine

Its Boyf's Big day(: After 11 months of tough fight, he finally clinched his goal. He will be getting his red beret later this evening and i believe he is almost completing his 72KM Journey right now. Congrats Love :D

Life is taking a great U-turn back to its Sunny days which is a big HOORAY for me. I hope this will go on well(: I wanna meet up with thy friends! So girls if you see this, DATE ME! I'll furnish you with a great story through dinner or something! I wanna meet up with Porno, jo and bei. Which OBVIOUSLY NON reads this space. I think its better whatsapping them.

Note: * have no right to comment and change my decision. I dont see upon any reason why I should be even entertaining all that but i hope * know, * might be another victim as well dear(: Sometimes its really no point getting so agitated and in the first place, how long are * even staying here. For that, it is not worth it at all. I was foolish even to think it was and I hope * dont follow my footsteps.

2011-06-10T17:43:00.002+08:00

SICK

Fever hits 39.4 and its my worst experience ever. Constant vomitting and cant even walk properly. Thats yesterday. Boyf is not around to carry me and i have to climb 3 levels:( I miss him and his cooling pad on my head:(

Alot has been through my mind and its true that you have times of ups and downs. i have come to this point that life @ work is not getting anywhere better.

Have made up my mind today and i hope this is a good decision. Hopefully things will turn better and I can manage a better life(:

I wanna work hard but i dont wanna work hard. HOW?!

I wished boyf can be back now:(

I love him dearly...

2011-05-31T19:44:00.002+08:00

Mr.Perfect(:

When i was younger, i always thought.. To find true love, i've gotta reach the perfect man. Only now did i realise... Both of this comes hand in hand. When you truely love this man, he shapes the perfect man in your heart.

Vin made me realise, no man is flawless. I am amazed by how i can love everything of him. and it means EVERY SINGLE THING. Its different from the way i ever felt in my previous relationships. I dont mind anything about him. He make me feel like he is the perfect man i am looking for. I love every single bits of him. As digusting as constant farting. HAHAHA. I dont mean i love THAT SMELL. But if it was me a few years back, i might have left him for this:) I always wanted my man to be PERFECT. and now. He is Mr.Perfect for me(:

and i truely love you always darling... You made my life a whole and complete. I may not have promised you anything like i ever did before to others but I assure you i will work doubly hard. Changes is ever so constant that I dont have the guts to ever commit anything promises....

2011-05-30T11:33:00.002+08:00

When our love entwined.

5 days has past since he left. Spent my weekends with family and friends. and i realise, life is so much different and uncomfortable without him. I whine and complain about all sorts of stuff. 2 more days and we are hitting our 2 years 5 months. Its amazing how time flies.

Met up with Fang and jo over the weekend and had a hearty chat till 2 in the morning. Was talking alot about relationships. Its great how we could share with each other our deep felt thoughts and definitely awesome how we still feel so comfortable with each other's presence despite the years apart(:

Hitting the topic on relationship, i am amazed with the path me and the boy walked this far. Touching on plans on future, marriage and kids. I was telling the girls how i feel we could be together forever... but thats when the reality hits me and i realise i should be a little reserve over such issues. Not that i have no confidence over our r/s. but that human changes over time. I thought about this and i came up with some points. To maintain a healthy relationship, one should learn to give and take. To also trust and be more mature in terms of feelings and temper.

I dont believe in male / female chauvinists and definitely me and the boy always maintained a very fair relationship(: We take turns in terms of making decisions:) but to be very honest, this very nice boy of mine, always, never fails to give in when coming to this.

I very much appreciate the way he love and care for me. He always make me feel like the world's most fortunate girl. And the girls were right. When you're in love, this man, no matter what, makes the world most handsome guy.

I should stop here. If i were to continue this, i know this post is coming to no end. This is how much i'd share with this love of mine. Thanks dear for being this wonderful. You know you meant the world to me.

"I dreamt of holding on to your hand till the end. I dreamt of touring around the world. I dreamt of working hard for our luxury living. I dreamt of forming a family. And all this cannot be done without you my dear. I love you."

2011-05-25T20:10:00.002+08:00

Jubbled emotions

There's alot up that puny brain again. I felt the squeeze in my heart. Words cant describe my emotions. I dont know where to start and how to start.

I just felt being kept from and this is really scary. I just want to run away:(

2011-05-19T11:17:00.002+08:00

OMG I AM DAMM DAMM DAMM PISSED OFF. FUCKING BITCH STOP BEING SO FULL OF YOURSELF IDIOT!!!

2011-05-18T13:23:00.002+08:00

Fruitful Vesak day.

Spent it simply all alone for this holiday. Feels super weird being free on a sunny afternoon w/o bf around. Even though, it was a really peaceful day. Woke up with satisfied amount of sleep. Headed out to clarke quay, The Central to get sticky sweets before heading down to people's park centre to get my tickets for HK(: It feels great to stroll along the tall glass windows of the shopping malls with songs streaming into my ears.

Headed to PS than to suntec, city link and Home to meet mummy for Dinner after heading to ah-ma house. Lastly home to do my sweet surprise(: Have yet to complete and hence will head home today to finish up the last details(: Dont think boyf is free to come here and read and hence it is SAFE to post it up(: Prepared 4 big cartons for him to last 4 days w/o meeee(: hehehe =P Though still comtemplating should i do that big notice board...

Its been 2 weeks since i last hit the gym and i am starting to feel FAT. Especially that due to busy schedules, i ALWAYS gobble down my food. OK, i shouldnt put the blame on my schedules. Its more like a bad habit. Also that boyf and I always eat excessively!!! This is a major NONO:( hence i feel FAT for not going gym for 2 weeks. I wanna stay and go tonight BUT i also wan to go home and do his notice board. WHICH SHOULD I? But i also can do the notice board tml lei. BUT I ALSO CAN GYM TML LEI. so how?! Advise meeeeeeeeeeee. AND YES! i got a new target to meet. TO GYM DAILY for 21 days when he is not around(: Weekend will be my break(: and look out on the food i eat! i will go online and search for a healthy meal table and follow closely!

Army is shit cause its taking my boyf away from me. he will soon be on his 21 days expedition to brunei and than i will be boyf-less:( OH! lets stop brooding about that. busy schedule will bring me away and soon boyf will be back. If i can survive 5 weeks w/o him when he went beijing than i can survive 3 weeks w/o him again. AND YOU! break ur promise>:( say you wouldnt leave me alone for so long again. oh wells. not ur fault. Commandos' :(

BTW, i am leaving for hong kong again this friday. Hope to enjoy the trip and pray that NOTHING urgent/bad will happen back in SG :( Wanna let my hair down and truly enjoy the trip. And I look more forward to the one when Boy is back(:

And i shall hit the gym very soon. prolly after HK trip(: hehehhe~

2011-05-11T14:23:00.003+08:00

REPAIRED

Haven been blogging previously cause my comp was down and hence do not have any connection to the net except the iphone. lazy and cant be bothered to come and give an update either. But since the superboyf has repaired my slam-spoiled laptop, i shall try to make an effort to come and blog every now and then. Prolly not for the sake of letting my readers have something interesting to read about but to actually write down my memories.

I scrolled back to the earliest post and read-fore. AWESOME! it feels so great to read back all the posts. Be it a happy or sad posts, it was greatt(:

Is it that its been too long since i read a novel or write a post, i feel like i just cant structure my sentences properly. I need an english courseeeee(:

The weather has been so so so HOT recently that i thought i will melt under the sun:( I could literally feel my head spinning at times D: Hate global warming. Have a resolution to be environment friendly now:(

Been looking frequently at those coupon side and expenditure is increasing gradually! This is no good. and where is that resolution to save again? AWWW:(

Will be flying off next friday night. excited yet gloomy. excited that finally after a year over i am going on a trip again. gloomy cause 20-24 is boyf break before he hit brunei and I WILL BE AWAY TOTALLY:( this is nowhere near awesome:( and oh wells. better than ruining both, i choose to enjoy my rare holidays(: and come back on time to at least sent him off for his 21 days expedition:D

We've come thus far and i believe we'll go on further and forever. We might fight/quarrel, but at the end of the day, we'll still cuddle to bed. and thats us(: 1 + 1 = 2. we make a pair =D it been a joy working on the weekdays and looking forward to the weekends when he can book out. waking up every morning to see his sms-es which makes a daily dosage of happy pill. This routine has been going on and on. so fast that its been 11months. 1 month plus to his ceremony. I am proud of this boy(: He just amazes me sometimes(:

Been rather skeptical about certain stuff and it makes me feel like just going off when clock strike 5.30PM. and for some reason i started playing MAPLESTORY again. kiddo or what?! haha. been telling ppl around me and i just merely got laughed off. oh wells. its a form of entertainment what.

TODAY is boring. I cant say i have NOTHING to do but i just have nothing URGENT ( cause i seem to have urgent stuff all the time). Decided to go home early and hook on net to do some research and plan out my HK itinery. Its about time(:

its 2.41PM. lets count down(:

2011-03-21T12:45:00.002+08:00

Competitiveness.

Its a monday noon and i feel the blues... Boring long meetings and endless work to do. Whats worst?

Somehow or rather, i kind of wanted to get down to do something. But thinking about it, like hello? I am only 20 not even 21 till date. Whats the rush now?

I've got a new task just few minutes ago. About a 500 lines. Tell me i am not feeling giddy about it again. HAHA!

I thought i was strong enough to cross every hurdle. Even people around me thought i could. At the end of the day, prolly it was just a facade i placed before the inner self. and prolly, i just cant afford to lose out. Its that thing in me being the reason why i can work so hard, despite all comments and disagreement.

I passed this place i really fell in love with on sunday. Bontanika. I thought that place was really awesome and i could feel the serenity. And its somewhere i would want to return to after a long day of work. When will i ever reach there?

Prolly i need to work abit more harder... FML.

Ciaos

2011-03-17T10:49:00.002+08:00

MOVING ON..

I am starting on my monthly 7 page long aging list. filled with a few hundred lines. was it just my imagination or am i really getting abit giddy over this. Prolly just an excuse. Good one though...

my thoughts has been drifting away recently. every that often... been harbouring over the thought of switching a job. Should i just leave all comments and disagreement, and just head on to pursue my dreams. i know even though i might not pass, but i will defnitely regret if i dont even give it a try. But i am pretty sure now is not the time. Prolly towards end of the year maybe... call that " stuck in delimma " Its a big hurdle for me i would say..

Time flies and i've been working here almost a year. I cant wait for another special getaway. like the pulau ubin one... that was truly awesome. I cant wait for the HK trip with momo and feifei. though i have been to hk like so many times but this wonderful place worked some magic and i simply cant resist.

No more travelling this year till dear is out of NS. been falling sick lately. just hope my health gets better and i can work harder.

alot of unfortunate event been happening in my life lately. I srsly dont know what shit did i stepped on but nonetheless i hope for the better.

I dont what am i rambling about.. when i am FORTUNATE enough to be here in SG. and not in Japan. The devastating disaster befalls and YET the people there are growing strong. I need them to set me an example...

I guess i should just stop being unhappy over midget stuff and just live my life the way i love it to be... I should just stop pondering over matters than causes my days weeks and months to go down on depression. I should just simple enjoy the i was i like it to be..

Full schedules next week. I hope i will have fun. And dude, i srsly missed you...

Thats abt it for now. my 7pages long list is waiting for me..

till then... ciaos.

2011-03-11T16:50:00.002+08:00

sunny - peaceful :)

Its a happy happy day today. After going through a few weeks of roller coaster ride.

I. Had. Enough.

So i wrote this in FB one day "i've learn to "let go" certain things that are just beyond my means and control. and i thought this made me happier. after going thru this roller coaster ride of emotions, i've learn to cherish certains things and forgo some. prolly thats the essence of life and makes you grow stronger in mind. too much of ugly truth on humanity..."

Alot of emotions went through me and i was overwhelmed. It all came down hard on me for the pass week and i thought it was the suay-est few weeks ever. however, whatever that happened made me treasure my own family. i know it might be a wreck but nontheless gave me the most security and happiness.

feeling rather peaceful this afternoon. even though big boss came down to malaysia and is in the meeting room. I thought this is a beautiful TGIF. i never had this feeling for such a long period of time i thought i'll never be happy:( Wait... prolly happy is not the word. peaceful is:D

so much on complaining abt work stress and PR. people questioned " which job wouldnt be stressful" i thought abt this question for long enough.. and finally i came up with an answer i thought was right... "if you are working your dream job, you will be a lill happier(:"

oh wells. can i go try puhlease >.<

alright. abrupt ending. end work liao. bb.

2011-02-21T10:38:00.002+08:00

i cant remember when was the last time i wrote something. all of a sudden i felt it was good to keep hold of this space. i kept reading others but i wrote nothing here. i thought it was great to come back here and post something now and then.

As usual, life has been hectic. Many words unspelled and many thoughts unsaid. I've some target which i haven yet achieve and i want to... Prolly for the sake of our future, i should start to be a little more serious and work a little more harder. I thought i wasnt good enough... and to be exact i always thought i never will be...

i've got to stop being so extravagance... i've got to have a good plan for the future. and we've got to work alot more harder.

I always thought i wanted a very good life...

and i fight for it...

NOW :D

2011-01-07T16:41:00.003+08:00

I felt like a zom when i got the news... though more or less i expected the negative outcome but still at the point of truth, i couldnt hold back..

Thanks love for every single moment you created in my life.. You've been really tamed and sweet. Thanks for being there when i was happy i was sad. Thanks for loving me. Thanks for being you. I will always remember you and you stay deep down there in my heart. I hope you were happy all this while. I blame myself for not cherishing those extra times i had with you.. I will never forget all the days where you will be at the door when i am back.. i will never forget those times when u lie quietly beside me when i sob in my bed.. I will never forget you...

I promise to make the best out of this few months and let you be at the happiest.. I love you... and you'll always be remembered.

2010-12-19T00:23:00.002+08:00

uphill... way to go..

I think i have neglected this space for quite sometime. its been like emails>blogging. but still there is time when i have a spur of a moment, and i will be back here giving an update. did manage to upload my photos up and there's still like a million thousands hundreds things to do.

currently online to finish up SOA and so i can finally snug under those blankets in peaceee. been having sleepless nights... alot of stuff are up in that puny brain. its been really crazyy. But i hope all this hardwork are not going down the drain. i really really anticipate something... kind of expecting to stay a lill longer here. prolly this, used to be nt an interest of mine, is starting to gimme more sense of achievement. throughout the 3 years of practice in NP, i felt i was totally not cut out for it. but lill did i know, i felt much MUCH better when i am out here, striving for a living. and i actually gain sense of accomplishment every single closing. nt that the debtors went down or did i actually met the way faraway target. but its the amount of genuine effort i actually did put in. i was stunned at the passion i had every single month. i was grumpy, i whine, i complained. Yet at the time i receive the results email every month, i felt... AWESOME!

and so this is gonna be the most crazy closing for the year. i hope i will survive thru AND i will actually reap some sow(:

alrights. time to head back to work and i have MANY MANY updates to give. esp this is my fav season and 2nd yr anni(:

i cant believe i am working thru this season. i used to be all happy and prepared for it. and this year, its wayyyyyyy much diff. man...

2010-11-23T09:30:00.002+08:00

i am fully filled with emotions.

Its work-time and i cant help but sneak into blogger to write down somethings.. there's a sudden rush of emotions which i dont know why. prolly everything is too much for me to handle. no? i cant seem to find the strong within for me to prolong my energy each and every single day. i need a long- well derserved break:( and am hopeful no one in this cold office reads this space.

the move was neither awesome nor horrible. it was plain. however, it doesnt feel as homely as it was back in somerset. and thing seems to get abit more political here. i got a lill paranoid on how should i react to all those stuff but well, at the end of the day. i will get back to where i was. and hopefully, better off.

life's been a lill more hectic than usual. with work with bf with family. i dont know. its a lill hard to balance everything at times. i miss those days i could just snug under my warm blanket till i wake up naturaly. i can go out and shop, do manicures and just wander around. i can tan under the big hot sun, sipping onto a glass of my fav cocktail. eating breakfast. aww. those leisure life, where has it gone to?

2010-11-13T00:59:00.003+08:00

Just the thought of writing again. it always happens when i stay up till late night and when all the nonsensical emotion dawns on me. I had a great, fun day. today. with the grace from my manager, i get to skip work-from-home and had a total awesome meet up with jacq. We went USS. my second try. the fun wasnt the main thing. the happiness was. nothing beats a bright sunny day out with ur best girlfriend.

i hate not having enough time. i had being always so not busy. i hate having so much commitment. i hate life. w/o joy. i need a break. i need a vacation.

there is more than a 1000 place worth to visit before i bid a goodbye to this world. i need time. i need that finance, to be able to fulfill this dream. time is short, chances are few. and the only question is:

When will i be able to fulfil this dream?

i feel a squeeze. right in my heart. i have a lot of question, which i am unable to answer..

i need a break. definitely.

and i look forward to seeing bf. i miss him. dearly. i wan time to fly. for him to get out of the freaking NS and to move on and create a future. i need him:(

2010-11-11T18:48:00.002+08:00

A day like a year.

Many memories many thoughts. Not easy to string into sentence and not easy to express thru a simple blog spot.

i just want to drop a note... i miss KIROPI :D

HAHHA

see u on sattttttttt WHEE

2010-10-16T09:38:00.003+08:00

A random musing..

Its a bad month for me. working till wee hours, endless to-do list which seems to add on at a ridiculous speed. I'm starting to turn the clock anti-clockwise and zoom back to the past. it was eons ago since i feel soo busy that i'm starting to get a bit breathless. the workload and responsibility and commitment that i all have it coming down hard on me this month. i simply just want to cross my fingers and hope that i will survive till december. The christmas(:

It a sunny saturday. I wish i was sipping on a glass of cocktail and am basking under the big hot sun. Maybe adjoint with a book of my fav. wouldnt that be a nice deal? But oh no no, i am back in the office, piled up woth workloads and struggling to complete as much as possible so that i wouldnt simply break down next week(:

oh well, i once did it and i definitely can do it again. right?

I have a long long long want-to-do list. please help me make-it-happen fairy godmother!

2010-10-12T19:26:00.002+08:00

Another long winded post.

I am still in office. thats the only time i can be diligent enough to come back here for a post. If i am back at home, my mind wanderss too far to come back here(:

OH wells. All i have to update is bf bday and mine(:

BF's birthday was awesome. short 2 days but nonetheless, endless fun(: Checked into festive hotel late and i urged him out for a walk right after we settled down. Without knowing the secret mission going on behind his back, he kept grumbling he was hungry and insisted he wants to catch a bite. so we did at toast box. Oh yes, before that, i gave him his surprise 1 week before. A Canon 500D DLSR(: he was soooo excited with it. went taking some photos before i got the lights that the rest were ready(: Got him back to the room giving the excuse i had mense. my godd... and the expression he had on his face when he opened the room door seeing all his friends were PRICELESS :D he was so shock that he stepped back and closed the door again. HAHAHAH! chit chat catch up and finally his parents came. had dinner with his parents at chinos(thanks to fang and clarence). sumptous one and awesome too(: his sister stayed with us for the night. went shopping at candylicious(: ALL THE SWEETS ARE TOTALLY MY KIND OF LIKES(: his sister n her bf went swimming the next morning while we walked around resorts world. ended the day with a meal at bird hilltop(: than bf had to book in again:( SAD LIFE.

all in all. i would like to thanks those who came, who helped! Especially my 2 daughters and sister. Thanks alot alot. i know how much effort you guys put in. Thanks for everything single thing. You girls rock my life and definitely, it wouldnt be as much as fun w/o u all! Love all ttm(:

and on the 1st October. was BF POP(: TOTALLY EGGCITED!!!! there goes 2 months! FAST. mummy daddy chua came to fetch me at my workplace before heading to cine for dinner. headed down to camp but we got lost:( SAD! but nvm. we got there in time to smell all the stinky sweats(: Congrats darling(: u made it to this day. and finished the 24KM which wasnt any kick to the 72KM that is awaiting you! JIA YOU!!!

than was my birthday(: BF gave me a surprise on a BBQ which claimed to be a casual BBQ gathering. He said it was a casual BBQ with his family. We even went to buy the stuff tgt one night before! at first it was normal. with his family.. UNTIL! groups after groups of my close friends came. I WAS TOTALLY SHOCK-ED! i never did expected them! TOTALLY. no contact with me somemore before that! hahahha! but still thanks alot to those who came. Thanks for all the presents for all the effort and for all the love(: It was one of the best birthday i ever had. HONEST! it was the first surprise birthday i had THAT REALLY DID SHOCKED ME! THANKS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU! love u all TTM! I promise to post all the photos soon ok!!

1) Thanks DTS and Sister for the agnes B bag(: Love it! you girls really made alot of effort. no words can describe the gratitude i have for you all.

2) Thanks Fanny nette and jo! for the perfume(: I loved the meetups. the long chit chat n catch up. u girls are as awesome as ever!!!

3) Thanks cats n dogs for the bracelet! You guys made a significant part of my life and it forever will(: Love<3

4) Thanks pearl hui OHT n derek for the earrings(: I love the meet up for dinner and thanks for the dinner(: You guys never fails to make me laugh and also the card(:(:

5) Thanks Kel and PY for the self-drawn pooh bear SMASHED CAKE! thanks for making the effort to draw it and get all the party material.

6) Thanks cindy n gary for the swensen pooh bear ice cream cake! and finishing the foooood(: HAHAH

7) Thanks daddy mummy chua for letting me making a scene over ur place.

8) Thanks fatsy sis for the 150 bucks gift(: you know i cared(:

9) Thanks Bro for the "small" elmo that will die cause i hugged it! and for surprising me at my company door on my birthday itself! u know i cared abt it!

10) Thanks THE CHUAS for all the ang baos!

11) Thanks mummy daddy Tan for the ang baos! and mummy for my mee sua(:

12) and thanks all those that smsed me and wished me on FB!

13) and lastly, thanks special boy for everything you have done. be it the surprise, the gift, the long awaited long birthday letter and the romantic dinner. i thank you. You made a difference in my life. You hold me at the top of your life. Thanks for cherishing me, caring for me and most importantly loving me. Thanks for making your precious baby soooooooo happy on her birthday. Its the best birthday i ever had and you'll the best bf i'll ever have! Thanks dear and i want you to know. i love you, forever and always.

2010-09-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

ok lah! i decided to post without pictures. This blogger is a whore. Dammit for spending an hr trying to upload pictures and i done NON:( keep having bad request. BOOHOO! however.. i decided to do a post w/o any(:

2 major events that happened - Lessie 20th bday(: & BF's 22nd bday(:

Lessie - Happy Big 2(:

bought her a pink braun buffel wallet as a pressie.Half (: and met her way before her bday with a day plan in mind. First stop was shangri-la Hotel, The line restaurant(: Had a sumptous lunch buffet at The Line. Never did it fail me(: Always that nice. thought i wouldnt say that the food is totally FABULOUS. but the ambience was 5 stars(: U know me. ambience is everything. I pay any price for ambience. HAHA! no good mood, 5 star food will plunge to 1 star(: and we cabbed to sentosa(: wanted to go underwater world BUT it was filed with tourist + banglahs + SK singaporeans like us:( so we decided to head someway esle. and we ended up doing FISH SPA. Virgin trys for both of us. TOTALLY HILARIOUS!!! the fish TICKLES TTM:( i hate it when they squeeze between my toes:( and we had foot massage. HAHA! so there was this thingy about pressing a certain spot and if it hurts means that we are weak in certain health area. We with ended the session with a conclusion that I will be paralyse SOON and lessie will have a heart attack soon. LOL! after that we took millions of shots at USS big globe. and head to hardrock cafe for a drink. I had a sex on the beach and lessie had something blue. i forgot the name. ok. rmb-ed mine cause it was so CATCHY you see(: HAHAHAH! anyways. waiting for the night USS and we shopped around. went into the night USS, take photos. zi-high abit and ended the beautiful day with a glamourous fireworks. well. nth compared to disney though=/

Part 2. Met tians on the midnight that strikes to lessie birthday to give her a surprise. oh wells. did it succeed? I suppose it did(: had a great long chat before me and tian cab home(: Happy big 2 lessie. Love u ttm(: though i might be too busy and caught up with life. i am always here. to lend u a listening ear. to love you. to be here with you. i will support any decision. make some advice and see u succeed(: Love you.

BF's 22nd(:

Got him a DSLR(: Canon 500D(: he loves it(: surprised him at festive hotel with DTs, sister, wugui, warren, zhiyong & joanne. It was awesome to see the shocking face of his(: Its late now so i shall blog on this with details another time(:

USS again on sat. LOL! stay tune for my new blog link(: i am shifting. till - his freee(:

rights. night world. training for bush fire is tml:(

2010-09-26T10:01:00.002+08:00

Hey readers(:

Have alot of unposted events. important and FUN ones(: end of the day ogays(:

<3

2010-09-08T22:46:00.002+08:00

IMH ( i miss him)

Its 3 days ever since i last spoke to him. I miss him alot alot..

I sliently pray he will stay fine and safe.

Work. its good. love the way i bury myself into the pile of endless accounts. it makes time a lill easier to pass. it makes me feel better. still when the sun sets beyond the horizon, when the night dawns upon the bustling city, i feel the sudden loneliness again.

i seriously miss him alot... dearest, u mean the world to meee.

i love you.

2010-09-07T19:13:00.002+08:00

rights!

i hv an exciting weekend to post about(: Friday was awesome:D because firstly, boyf get to book out in advance. and initially it was 7PM. but 530PM i received his call and he said he was on his way out alrdy!!! tadah! surprise(:(: and i went on shopping spreeeeeee on friday. bought lots of stuff. new clothes new heels(: and a cute froggie card and plushie for him(: secondly, I met up with the cats and dogs(: AND it was my first night out to ZOUK(: attended the NBS party. wasnt up to what i had expected but the crowd there made it better(: had a nice chit chat time with bel joyce and jacq. totally miss them to the max. and to think no more crazy sch days and proj days with them makes me feel a lill emotionally:( awww. BUT STILL. like we said. Kbox will be our best gathering(:

had brunch at feixiong on saturday(: watched haunted changi after that. oh wells. nt that nicee but was scary enough for me. and to me, i felt it was more like a documentary than a movie. i get to know various more places in OCH. HAHA! movie ended and we decided to drive over to demsy for a walk. shopped at jones the grocer(: bought a glass bottle, manuka honey and a chocolate drink powder ;D AWESOME^^ and since boyf wanted to get something for his koi fishes, we went down to clementi(: and i spent on some durian puffs and pastries while he bought a new water pump. Went home and slacked before we do some work for his Koi pond. ok. he did not me. i was inside enjoying my durian puff with his mum. HAHA! had dinner and is was damm good! i missed my brocoli soo much:( and we head to jurong point latter in the night to get some DVDs. I again bought another 2 pairs of heels. and some personal stuff ;)

Sunday the sunny. Woke up pretty early. went over to my area and packed breakfast before heading to my house for breakfast with my momo. went back to his house to slack and watch a second DVD before falling asleep for ard an hr. Wanted to had a lundi (lunch + dinner) at Hilltop teppanyaki but ended up in Dempsy AGAIN. had jumbo(: it was totally a feast!!! sharkfins soup + cod fish + phoenix chicken + Bamboo shoots + Hor fun + Boiled live prawns! AND ITS JUST THE TWO OF US! We savour everything up like 2 barbarians glutton =P oh wells. he insisted i WAS the ONLY glutton. whatever O.o Head home after that and started to pack up and get prepared for my most hated part of the week:( The book-in. Oh wells. lets nt dwell about(:

thats the weekend(: it sums up to:

1) a shopping of: 1 dress, 3 tops, 4 heels, 5 undies, 5 DVD, some cute stickers and some grocery(:
2) I had my virgin trip to zouk
3) I AM FALLING MEGA IN LOVE WITH DEMPSY(:
4) i had a great great GREAT weekend with dearest(:

And yesterday, MONDAY. was monday bluess. i couldnt concentrate at all cause, one, boyf is in field camp and i am kinda worried and two, ITS MONDAY! who's not anyway? the long snakey hours of work. its like killing my SILENTLY:( but when work was about to end.. GUESS WHO'S CALL I RECEIVE? jeanette tan bei bei. had a impromptu shopping trip at bugis(: and OH-MA-GAWD! guess how long have i nt went there? 2yrs(: approximately lar... EVERYTHING IS LIKE GOD DAMM CHEAPPPPPPPPP CAN! i spent like less than 60 bucks getting : 2 bags, a dress and a belt. if for the usual places i go, cfm more than that BY ALOT:( oh my god. i look like a damm sua ku:( but i was happy anyway(: OH YES! i bought a pair of citigem earrings for mummy(: hope she likes it.

and that concludes my dayssssss before(;

PS: i misses my boy alot. like damm alot. i have nvr ever tried nt contacting him for 7 days straight. like this is th first ever time:( no phone calls and nt even a sms. oh wells. but i promised to be a good girl and stay strong(: i really really hope he is safe in there. i am god damm worried! hope he will survive thru this 7 days course and successfully POP as a commando recruit(: oh well. got one more 24KM road march to goooo. Jia you dear!!! Baby will always be there for you. Distant will not keep us apart(: Our hearts are as close as ever:D I will miss u loads and makes sure u receive 13 SMSes when u switch one ur phone(: I love you dear. Amore...

2010-09-01T22:46:00.002+08:00

more than happiest :D

Once again, its the first day of the month and that means Happy 1Yr 8 Monthsary(: My poor boy was having outfield for the past two days and he only did manage to grab some time to give me a call just now. Felt damm great(: looking at the time, i thought he wouldnt be able to give me a call. and when the phone rings. i almost jumped with joy(: Thanks baby for giving me that call. even it was just less than 10 minute, it was totally awesome!!! thanks for wishing me happy monthsary =]

Life's super great with him around(: even that the whole day was so boresome with work, even that i was super fustrated with some stuff. Just a five minutes talk with him killed everything(: EVERYTHING SINGLE ONE OF THEM(: dear you are so great(: I miss those days i would be able to stick with you 24/7. I miss those days i would have your presence once i open my eyes early in the morning.. Dear.. i simply miss you sooooooo much:( i cant wait for saturday...

Am super excited of whats planned coming up(: 3 weeks from now! rights. i shall go bed. doubt dear will call me again anyway(:

Goodnight world :D

2010-08-30T23:30:00.002+08:00

Dear diary(:

You call this a blog post doed(: Another half an hour to the last day of this month and that hint the start of the next month. feeling rather dissapointed cause i am spending this special day of the month all alone:( precious is having a 2 day outfield and i am ALL ALONE >:(

I am all hyped up at this point of time. cause i am starting to have some plans for his birthday(: anyways, decided on the plans for lessie ones thought:D Secret NNP(:

i am going to be a good cook(: a good scrapbooker(: a good girlfriend:D

HAHAH!

Eggcited eggcited:):):):):)

IMMA LOVE HIM TTM<3

2010-08-30T20:35:00.011+08:00

marvellous weekend(:

Had a super fab weekend with dearie<3 Seeing him only once a week is SO-NOT-EASY:( oh wells, we'll pull through though.

Went sentosa on sat morning(: Tried Megazips(: SUPER DUPER AWESOMELY FUNNNNN!!! but its like 29 bucks per pax gone in ONE MINUTE. imagine. HAHA! oh wells. still we had fun. its so call a "pre monthsary celebration" haven make the card though:(

and his birthday is coming(: surprises... some ideas pls anyone????

hmm. photos below. do enjoy(: shall head to bed. tml's a long day:(

In our harness...

series of failed photos taken thru the mirror. idiot trying to flex in "awesome" muscle. LOL!

Waterfall... I NEED A HOLIDAYYYYY:(

everyone knows i love him TTM!!!

the precious where we get to ride only once a week now:(

uber bloated mr chua(:

elephanieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee(:

2010-08-26T12:47:00.002+08:00

ROAR!

am soooooooo tired:( was super busy yesterday. stayed to OT till like 12.40AM last night. and now its after lunch and i feel like i am gonna fall asleep any time soon. zZzZzZzzzZZZzz

i wanted to tok abt the same old thing then i realise.. forget it. i shouldnt dwell on such boring stuff yea? oh wells. still i cannot forget the digust when i look at you! IRKSOME FELLA >:(

rights. i will come back again few days later for a major updates(:

read on readers. Loves<3

2010-08-24T13:27:00.002+08:00

GOOD DAY EVERYONE(;

Just had lunch and am superr full * Burpppp* what can i say about another boring day?

...

I suppose. There's alot of thing thats supressed inside me and I cant to rant about it to anyone or at anywhere. Its tiring how I am suppose to beat around the bush to get to the main idea i wanna tok about... and its also damm stupid when months or years after i post this, i re-read it again, i feel like smacking my own face and say "Claire Tan, why are u so childish?"

But heck.. Now that i usually dun hv much topic for my blog except for lovey dovey stuff and boring updates of my mundane life... i should whack on this :D

Once upon a time, there lived this princess. She's pale and puny looking, with a disgustingly whiny character. She best at giving innocent looking eyes and cute little smiles. Making all the prince and knights falling for her. So one day, this dumb stupid prince fell for her. He went all ways out just to make her fall in love with him. Finally, they were both deeply in love. Now, the princess revealed her true colours. She cheated the prince of all his inheritance and ran away to live happily ever after(:

I know this short story is no where well written but the meaning to deliver was simple and straight (: If you feel you are the princess in that story, all i can tell you is.. Its time to end your life(: You dont deserve one bitch :D

anyway. of course i am definitely refering to someone if not there is no point in typing all this la! and i can even make up reason why i dislike you :D

1) I dislike the way you make it as if the whole world LOVES you. but the fact is NO. everyone is gossiping behind your back(:

2) I dislike the way you smile. i feel so disgusted AND i know very well thats a FAKE(:

3) I dislike the way YOU being so RUDE. You look into people's eyes when they tok to you. and most importantly. You reply the person who asked you the question(:

4) You dont ask for a gift. You wait till you deserve it.

5) I SERIOUSLY HATE THE WAY WHY CAN YOU BE SO DEMANDING.

Finally, i think you disgrace us the females. You dont deserve anything! I know this is going to be veryy meann,, but! I hope all the bad luck befalls on you and i hope you get ur karma soon! I dont believe you can stay the way you are in the next 15 years(:

Rights. thats for today. I know i suck for typing all this but what heck. i enjoyed(:

2010-08-23T15:03:00.002+08:00

Hi bloggie(:

Its a wonderful afternoon... With Piles & Piles of work and endless madness:( Am currently at work. Feel super lethargic and decided i should take a break. Have a kitkat(: the one Jacqueen bought for me :D

Oh. follow ups for ytd. Didnt had Pu tien in the end. was Closed when we got there. :( Superr early they >:( We ate ajisen instead. Bf missed it super loads. But i had stomachache after that :'(

Okay. abrupt stop. i have to work(:

2010-08-22T11:15:00.003+08:00

back for a short update. its sunday morning and its the happiness morning of every week. and thats simply because i get to have him just right beside me(: Went out till late last night. met his platoon mate and stuff. LOL! Humourous people i would say. possibly u can also say last night was night spinning. Oh ya. washed beetle too(: the feeling was exceptionally great(;

oh yes. i didnt mention something about my job. there's a better opportunity for me currently. not confirmed though. but now i genuinly wants to take it up(: it'll be a better challenge and exceptionally great explosure. Once everything is kind of confirm or rather "they want me" i will update again. lets pray for the best of the outcome(:

just bathed and waiting for dear to bath. heading to jp for a brunch at pu tien(: like finally. i simply love it there(: oh yes. i want a pink panther tee:( any info anyone???

Just a side note: certain stuff. i didnt wan to KPO. but just some outsider thoughts. i simply dont understand whats going thru that puny brain. but i will never let u harm anyone(: good luck girl. honestly, u suck in everything(: i'm so sorry to be so meannn.

2010-08-20T23:00:00.002+08:00

wheeee (:

Finally made a change(: i like the current theme. no need effort to change. haas. good job blogger(: so far. life has been really fulfilling and great. though just fell sick not long ago but i still feel as great. except for that i didnt had dear for one night. as in he cant call:( but its ogayys(: i pulled thru didnt i? OH YES! imma proud my him(: Mr marksman. Shoot 32 tio 32. CFM ZHUN! hahhaa. insider joke. HAHAHHAHA!

oh man. yes. i am lead bad by my colleagues.HAHHA! they super dirty. HAHA! ok honestly i was part of the joke too. HAHAH! oh wells. i cant believe days w/o them . they're a fun bunch(:

router died. did i mention? so i am like using direct connection in the living room. no feel to blog. plus i am busy online toking. i will be back again i suppose.

and i promise i will make promt updates now and then(: byee

2010-08-08T12:00:00.002+08:00

its 12 noon exact. i thought i should come back and post something before the feeling dies off again. rights... shall nt scroll back to those that is missed out yea? will be abit too naggy i suppose. HAH!

life at work is great. ppl there is getting more friendlyier i suppose. HAH! but shitta them. damm polluted i tell u. HAH! i dont suppose they are reading this. but then again. they brighten my working days defnitely. Heard abt Unilever TGIF. i cant wait :D lets drink and drunk! hahaha!

anyways. one day at work. only 3 of us came. so the rest was MC on leave. i got so bored w/o the usual crappers and went online to see see look look. and what happen was 5 minutes ago. i was looking at this instant camera and was asking whether should i buy. and 5 min later. i told them. bought. LOL! i cant stand it. but damm i had great fun with it :D

went timbre ytd. attendees: pearl derek oht kor and janice(: we took peektures(: and drink. but not drunk. muahah! had rochor tau NI(: HAHAH! ok la. then roam around like idiots. damm tiring. but i had great fun laughing and being HIGH(: i love this ppl to the max :D

and today. HAPPIEST in my one whole week(: mr dearie chua lovely baobei is BOOKING OUT(: I MISS U DARLING. i cant wait i cant wait. yes. 5 more hours :D gg cityhall to walk walk first. toking abt that. i.. love shopping alone. LOL! walking around. and tml(: SENTOSA.

k la. will beback. gonna go prepare alrdy :D

2010-06-26T23:44:00.003+08:00

i click a few times to finally decide to type first or upload pics first. HAH! finally i decided to type first. this screen becomes less and less farmiliar to me. its been a while since i was back and i suppose no one is reading this space of mine? i dont know. HAHA! anyway. work is burning time out of me. preventing me from attending any leisure activities. was back to work today too. but it feels great(: i feel sense of accomplishment again! kudos(: alot have past by and i finally decided to blog again. its great(: have no time to change my skin of whatever. earn $$ more impt(: for something impt(:

what can i say? life has been circling around work and alvin. nothing much. its 5 weeks towards his enlistment. i'm gonna miss him like mad. anyway. mentioning about him, his crazy over gucci or what? LOL! thanks for the sunglass and lanyard(: and thank myself for the Okaley sunglass i got for him(: HAHAH!

well. tonight is one of the night i have a lill more time. to feel like staying online for a lill while more. maybe u could say a more emotional night? uh uh. not those negative crying sort. those looking back at my wonderful now life sort. i wouldnt use wonderful though. it should be contented(: and i just want to say something: i will prove that i am worth ME(: dont get what i mean? dont guess(:

ahh. cant help but think abt dear gg enlistment. NVM! i survived 6 months w/o u, i can survive 1 year 10 mths w/o u too(: love ya(:

rights. what else? i dont know. haha. i will come back when i feel more profound with knowledge(: bye. and USS on 6 july(: looking forwards(:

Claire

PS: pictures below. ah wells. cause i dont reall hv the time to take pic even. it was hastily taken using my stupid webcam which i dont know how to operate. and as u can see, even the gucci word is opp -.-" and this shows it was right choice to get a DSLR(:

2010-05-26T23:56:00.002+08:00

pretty long ever since i am back for a post? think scrolling back to PAST events is such a waste of time? HAHA! toking about that. it reminds me for giving and taking. i guess for the past years, i've been giving too much? so much so that some people just dont cherish it at all. even though some stuffs are joke-able. but i believe i would still appreciate it if you could at least acknowledge my givings(: thanks(: oh wells. nothing much recently i could say. just ended the steamboat session with the usual people before they enter the cruelty world of NS. ha! never fail to enjoy time spent with them. rather, i am glad they are around.

sometimes, i get so tired of everything that i cant help but feel so disgusted. HAHA. ok i dunno what am i toking about. LOL!

anyway. dearest has been complaining the lack of blogging recently. erm. simply cause the company gets access to FB easier and faster :D anyway did i mention i went cameron highlands like month ago? i did, did i? anyway. next trip. over THE sea. to SENTOSA :D hahahha! still over the sea WHAT! whats wrong? uh. ya la. to stay in resort world and Universal studio :D i cant waittt. at least a break from work?

and life has been so good that working is such a F-ed for me:( oh man): nvm. smile and everything SHALL be fine :D

Claire

2010-05-20T13:17:00.001+08:00

speechless.

speechless-ly bored=( luckily there's internet access at work. else i'll be like.. WTH=( i miss boy too. cnt wait for TGIF(:

Claire

2010-05-17T23:26:00.003+08:00

TADAH!

well. after weeks and i am back for an update. i suppose? nth much to say about. had been spending most of my times with those secondary school cliques. i enjoyed those sentosa tanning session. FELT UBER GREAT. couldnt jio anyone to sentosa at all cause previous none of my friends love doing that. but uhhuh!!! these crazy bunch of asses do(: HAHHA! went sentosa couple of times recently. quite frequent i might say. and UNIVERSAL STUDIO. though u aint fabulous. but still i amm coming for u. JUST U WAIT(: and yes. supper and wanton mee. HAHA i love that all. majorly: nette,keegan&gf,willmen&gf,OHT,derek,kangwei. yes. all these are the frequent attendees of such gatherings(: love them all. felt great with memories brought back. i must say they are a bunch of friends i will never forget. and they are a bunch of people whom are willing to share all wills and woes. thanks for being so nice. thanks for loving me. thanks for being so supportive. to be willing to go until hougang in such hot weathers. U GUYS ARE SUPER DUPER EHTHU!!! and imma loving it(:

anyway. as most of u guys know. i started working unilever. producer of walls b&j magnum icecream. body foams like dove sunsilk(: and even lipton tea are theirs(: and THE BEST DEAL IS i get to eat b&j for free EVERDAY(: WOOPIE!!! ^^ hoops hops hips(: but anyway/ hope i would carry on to love this job of mine. enjoy with super hip manager and hyper collegues(:

schools starting soon in july. hopefully it will be nice new environment(: and i miss JACQ WEI MAO JUN:( so long no see. and joyce for baking and belinda for dinner. AWWWW!!! grad ceremony that is. I SWEAR I WILL HUG U GIRLS TIGHT TIGHT! MUAHAHAH. anyway. am grateful u girls rmb me even my frequent disappearance. HEH! loves<3

till this then. off to bed(:

Claire and i stil love my boy ttm<3

2010-05-02T00:20:00.003+08:00

a special post dedicated.

everyone knows i dont update my blog every that often anymore. i even wonder sometimes who in the world would come back to visit it every now and then? well. this special post dedicated. not to much surprised. for Mr C(: i know i often mention him here. and more like most of the posts were abt him and me. however. on this very special day. where it concluded yet another month we've walked through togther, i would like to spill some thoughts.

its not about how blissful we are NOW. but its more of how everything came about. looking at then when i totally ignored ur sms. totally decline u for meetups. and now that we are lovely dovely. it never fails to hang a smile on my face. u are the most sacrificial person i ever met. to sacrifies 24/7 of your time for me. be it games, interest or whatsoever. u neveer did failed to make me feel totally blessed. u can be in a foul mood for no reason cause i am. u can smile for no reason cause i did. u decided every part of your plan just because of me. u strived ahead cause of me. thanks for telling me how important i am to you. i was really touched. thanks for letting me know the reason why u strive so hard. to earn a status to earn a living to earn me(:

even though i was labeled to be fickle minded. even though i went into and out of a couple of relatonship. i never did regretted. even with some ppl toking behind my back. i used to take that into consideration. but realise now, thats part of the growing up(: those who labeled walked my path. just at a slower phase of mine. its just a way of life(: monetary terms used to be foreign to me. not even significant. however, after stepping into this society, u realise. what u hv been wrking so hard for for the past years, its to earn a status in this cruel world. i feel sad about it. however now, yet willing to strive, for a better living a better future. everyone wants to enjoy life. who dont?

well. thats sums up my thought of the day. before my boy enters the harsh training of the commandos. i really wan to spent a good time with u. hopefully what i have plan ahead would be enjoyable. thumbs up to you dearest. u'll be the proudest thing in my life. and i love you truly.

Claire

2010-05-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

one time update

i know its 34567 years since i updated. life has been really good. well. in some ways(: been busy with MOE promo. worked with some sec sch mates. felt really great. the feeling was..... i dunno. words cant describe maybe. its great how we clicked no matter what topics we indulge into. its great how we can understand each other even we dont say it out. its great we've known each other 7 years long. (: u guys are that fantastic. well. friends come and go. its hard to ask one stay. i understood-ed(: and. went out for supper a couple of times. SUPER SHIOK!!!

oh ya. i went cameron highlands. with dear. 2day1night. something different. great though(: photos upload into FB(: TRY. haha.

another big news. BF is enlisting:( hatess. countdown and i hope dear will survive through. definitely be proud of you my commando. (:

claire

2010-04-17T00:26:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog. but....

2010-04-07T02:42:00.002+08:00

something so uncertain.

been some days ever since i came back for a post. well. to be more exact. some days ever since i was online. been caught up with life i suppose. working part time for eureka. killed off most of my time. been gg over to meet dear at night. and meeting bei most of the time. (: work with her was horrible. not cause she was but because the job was. HAHA! but the complaining part was AWESOME. ok. shucks. i am BAD. heh!

have been wanting to post pictures and stuff. but i think i had some problem uploading. will upload to facebook. check it out there(:

wanted to come here to type some stuff. well. if u get what i mean. like literally type things. nt that there is a particular topic or something i wanna rant or tok about. but i just want to type. LOL!

and yes. toking about all this. what i wanna do following on isnt so called yet decided. i feel so uncertain. everything seems so bleak la. but well. i hope to give everything a good shot. but most prolly i will end up taking ACCA and handling a job that i have passion for. well. just some things else to consider. and these definitely need me to make up my mind and decide for myself. hopefully, by the end of april i would have an answer(:

i didnt came online cause i have to. i did cause i didnt have anything else and i cant fall asleep for some apparent reason. and so i didnt pluck in my AC. and since the laptop is soon dying on me. i shall take my leave for now. hopefully tml will be back. gg granny hse i suppose and i am dying to get a job. tell me anyone if u have any(:

Claire

2010-03-27T11:28:00.002+08:00

i've proven Claire = workaholic

Most of you know. i've fallen sick for the past few days. Felt damm uber suay. cause yesterday i was suppose to go doctors cause of my cough but i ended up being diagnosed with fever too. after stop working. i have fallen sick consecutively for a few times. while when i am having attachment. i so wanted to get sick so that i could stay at home but i just DIDNT at all. goddammit.

hence i concluded that: i am a workaholic

Claire

2010-03-26T13:46:00.002+08:00

the last episode...

Been a sickly worm for the past few days. fever as high as 39degrees. and those coughing and sneezing. never did felt so weakass for such a long time. thank goodness i have my boy with me. you always knew whatever that happens, you meant the world to me. even though i may not express myself, you know very well, i love you ttm(: thanks for the never ending support, the constant assurance. you're the best love(:

well... did i mention poly life ENDED?

yes. it ended when the result was out last week. it marks the last time i am getting my result from NP. it marks the last time i am gonna enter mel or npal. 3 years. not long. not very short either. its amazing so much had went through for the past three years. so much changes. so much memories created. in this three years, i learned alot, made alot of friends, grew alot. and most importantly, created a new book of memories. from strangers, to course mate, to classmate, to groupmates, to best friends to die hard partners. i met these people...

Cats and dogs
To these group of lovelies who fought through these 3 years with me. thanks for all the wonderful memories all these times. thanks for keeping me going, encouraging me, helping me and definitely, bringing me joy and laughter. even dogs who are sometimes always so annoying, they made a great deal in my life(: needless to say, the three girls who were there for me, hear me out, gave me advices and defnitely being the best companion i could ever ask for. without you guys, poly wouldnt be so fun and these 3 years wouldnt be that wonderful. i never did regretted joining guys and it was such a wise decision to do so. even though we may argue due to some disagreement, we are still ever so wonderful. no matter what happens ten years down the road, i hope we'll still keep in contact(: all in all, thanks alot and you'll guys will be love always. <3

I have went through alot of events, knew alot of people. those from NDP ambas, REDCAMPninjas, spin acc camp, ACC batch grad2010. and many many different encounters and event. it was great knowing you guys and without all this, these 3 years wouldnt be so great and happening. thanks all for being such a support, such a fab acquaintance(: and i am glad they are all on my msn list :D

needless to say, one more group of people i have to thank would be hoodies. or are we still hoodies? no matter, thanks for all these memories for years. thanks for accepting who i am and thanks for the constant support and endless entertainment. even though alot has changed cause of me or maybe not me. idont know. but whatever it is, i hope and truely wish that we will stay close and keep in touch. everyone says: secondary sch friends are those that stays with u forever. guys, lets makes this happen(: i look forward to our grad trip tgt. hopefully it will bring us a new book of memories(:

and last but not least, my boy. its amazing how we've come through. words fail to express what i want you to know. you're my constant support my pillar of strength. the love you gave, the care you've showed, its priceless. its amazing how we always ended up laughing at what we were arguing about. love, you're always so precious. every single effort you've put in were all appreciated. thanks for always making me feel assured. i simply love you(: we've gone through 10 horrid working days for you and i am sure we would pull through the next 1yr 10months when you're gonna jailed by the govt to serve the nation. i know we would stay strong cause we've gone through so much, been through this far. we'll walk on in life and move ahead to the next chapter hand in hand(: right dear?

Gracious me! i thought i just wanted to come in a post something and never did i realise i typed that load. LOL! well. good day ahead people. loves<3

Claire

2010-03-18T14:48:00.003+08:00

another post.

oh yes. i am a slumber worm at home again ;D

caught in the rain when coming home from tuition. darn! gg down to find bf and mom later. if u guys know. i accidentally upgraded my blardy firmware and was unable to jailbreak my iphone until now i am free. didnt wan to do it w/o bf around actually. in case i screw things up again. the previous time was so screwed. luckily i have one smart bf. who in no time resolve my problem. boo him. for calling me blur worm. >:(

ok. stop here. my download has completed. bye folks.

and i miss u dearly.

Claire

2010-03-17T10:05:00.003+08:00

HAHA! now i know what blogging is for...

lol. this space was freaking dead for the past months and now its coming alive. blogging at this time? HAHA. cause boyf is working and so i am FREE. freaking free i would say. coming back to the life after O levels. ahhhh. AINT LIFE BEAUTIFUL. HAHHA.

i miss this someone...
claire

2010-03-16T18:33:00.002+08:00

i didnt know it was that bad:(

dearest is at work. i am going nuts being alone at home. i dont like being at home either. i miss my boy. so badly. i miss that head of mine. i miss that hug. i miss your cacoon:( DEARDEAR. i miss you. seperating u from me. makes me feel so un-breathable. i hate to know. after all. i am losing u to the army. i finally know. how it feels to miss u so badly. boy. u are my life. i miss u.

missing u badly.

Claire

2010-03-11T19:57:00.016+08:00

HELLO EVERYONe(:

yes. i am back. back from the HK trip(: the super duper fab trip and i really had lots of fun. the awesome four days that i'll never forget. holidays are always so fabbs:D the holiday that marks the first trip with bf. the holiday that marks the first time i went disneyland. the holiday that marks the first time on cathay pacific(: recalling back on that four days. i.am.speechless. i love the way we would wake up early morning to go for breakfast. i love the way we shop till late nights in ladies market. i love the way we had fun at disneyland and ocean park. and i love airflight meal like always. OH GOSH:( i really miss those 4 days. and when i am back. its like. DANG!!! back to reality. shiat. ok. photos below.

GODDAMMIT! uploading photo in blogger almost killed me. i could only upload 1 photo at a time. tsk. and i still gt the genting ones. gosh. anyway. updates of recent stuffs...

Went for tanning at sentosa
Finally redo my manicure and pedicure
Went picnic with dearest at botanic garden(:
Watch Alice in wonderland 3D. nt very fabbs.
Went to the Zoo.
Went to Casino and Universal studio. cant wait for it to open:D
Ate at wavehouse with bf and family.
Ikea queensway anchorpoint vivocity:D
Gotta start preparing for interview.

Well. Enjoy the pictures below. its over a thousand we took. so i cant possibly upload all. so enjoy this few(:

Mickey train(:

i ate breakfast with mickey:D

OMG! i ate like. i dunno how many. of this ice cream. i simple LOVE it:D

AWWWWWWWWW! my pooh bear:D was the greatest picture taken

we bought a couple watch and we look super dumb. HAHA! but still i love it.

stayed in hollywood hotel disneyland. the room is OMG SHUANG(:

i went charlie brown cafe. totally awesome:D

Claire

2010-03-01T08:57:00.001+08:00

HELLO(:

HIHIHI!!! haha. i'm at the airport blogging with free internet access(: WONDERFUL. HAHA. k la. am boarding soon. bye singapore. Hello hongkong^^

loves dearest ttm.

Happy 14 Monthsary. uh la. i mention like umpteen times. hi

2010-02-28T23:17:00.001+08:00

HELLO:))))))))))))))))))

oh wells. i WAS so determine to post a PROPER post. on like pulau ubin trip and changi village trip. but dammit blogger's a biatch recently. i cant seems to upload all my photos. so i dont wan to pursue further and blog:D HAHAH. ok. and i finally gotten like the genting trip photos. which was taken ages ago. ok. i'll post them once i'm back. (Oh fuck! i can feel the immense pressure. of uploading the hell shit loads of photo. HAHAH)

rights. everyone. i am off to HK tml(: with dearest on our 14monthsary. Loves him TTM(: will be back soon. take care folks. Loves<3

Claire

2010-02-22T23:48:00.002+08:00

CNY(:

met up with e7's. close ones rather:D had a great time. and it was SO LONG ever since i head out of house at like 11PM? HAHA. reach home at like 4AM and woke up pretty early next morning. COOL! life is like super duper great(:

my boy (:>

She's always so ADORABLE(:

AH. ignore the whiteboard=( haha. anyway. thanks keegan for the drive home^^

LONG PALS MAN! 7 years and going on(: love u girls like ALWAYS:D

Claire

2010-02-18T15:18:00.004+08:00

AHHH CHOOOO~~~

boo! yes. ME IS SICK:( ill buggies came for a visit again. hate it. my nose is dropping. and my head seems to be spinning every this minute. GROSS:(

will be back to post soon.

Claire

2010-02-15T23:06:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY & Valentines(:

something special this year. didnt went back to batam with mummy and sissy. spent it with boyf and family. ah. i know what u guys gonna say.. ALVIN AGAIN.haha. ya la ya la. i love him to the max ok. HAHA!

Reunion dinner
haha. instead of staying at home to prepare. i went out to find my boy his shoe. HAHA. of course he loves it. HAHA. HE HAVE TO:D boy came over after his dinner to my hse to bai zhao nian. cause momo leaving for batam on chu yi. went off after being so overly excited abt his new shoe -.-"

Day 1
Boy came over to fetch me at 7 plus AM over to his house. had breakie and off to BAI NIAN(: and boy love the dress i wore on this day alot. he mention abt it like at least million of times. LOL! haha. i know i am prettaye la(: LOL! went around to bai nian with boy and family first before he came over to my side. back at his hse in the evening for dinner. oh. and i visited the arcade on chuyi(: cool~~ oh. and valentine. pretty special for us(: BUT ALVIN CHUA. i rmb something about HIGH MAINTENANCE UH!!! tsk tsk.. LOL

Day2
woke up around 8 when boy's mum came in to wake us up. washed up and breakie. as usual. girls took longer(: and i rmb this funny scene. we were in cindy room. and the girls (to be exact me cindy and mummy) was so busy dolling up when my boy was happily holding on to a box of cookies and munching away on cindy's bed. haas. always so adorable^^ ahh. and whole was bai nian. and u ask me about ang bao money. HAHA. its ok. the amount on reunion day could beat the rest. and its nearing 1K alrdy. wah lao. seriously. taking ang bao is better then earning money. LOL! and i am back at home tonight. i miss boy.

thats all.

Claire

2010-02-13T19:32:00.002+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year(:

days ago was tough. real tough for me and boy. hard times. but well. we hang it on together, hand in hand. slept over at boyf place for the past few days. hadnt any time to come online.

cant wait for time to fly previously. and TADAH! business is more or less settled. and i cant wait for CVH(: shall update ASAP(:

alrights. waiting for tml. NEW YEAR CLOTHES(:

Claire.

2010-02-10T10:54:00.002+08:00

Today is a great GREAT day(:

thats because....

1) i saw boyf earlier in the morning with heartwarming breakfast:D ilovemymilo...
2) MISS JACQ WEI IS BACK FOR GODSAKE!!! i missed her hella! i know she misses me too.
3) EY is suddenly so nice to me. i have connection to be online(: GREAT^^
4) i hope and pray this luck is gonna hang there. since ytd was really bad:(

Claire

2010-02-10T10:26:00.000+08:00

WELCOME BACK QUEEN (:

dont need to miss you anymore.

kaes la. still love you^^

2010-02-08T00:45:00.002+08:00

impluse? no. certainly not.

yes. why am still freaking awake at this period of time? can't slp cause bf is awake chiong his goddamm project. irksome ppl. yea. poor boy:( anyhow. i am kinda quite affected by somethings i happen to chance upon while surfing the net. not nice wandering around online when you have nothing to do. TSK!

human. cruel animal. live for themselve. selfish ones. Well. i learnt alot about these recently. from things i saw. from things i do. ren bu wei ji, tian zhu di mie. Oh well. how true can this sentence be? ppl slog all their live. for what? for a better living. for material comfort. i said something. If ppl have to work in order to live? then living = working? i rather not live. No one is perfect. After so much. i learnt to accept one being imperfect. i expect too much sometimes. well. it doesnt mean i am All right now. doesnt mean i always do make a right choice.

its not okay to keep complaining and just get stuck there in life. we all got to move on. to get a better reason in living. Boyf is right. We have to work hard now. so as to gain a better future. well. tell me someone. which way should i choose? the one that i worked for all my life. or the one i think its a better path for me now? the delimma have been haunting me. one week before i end three years worth of poly life. one week left for me to make a good choice decision. move on? or hang there and sacrifies? every hope now seems so bleak. however. i know i've got to move on.

to chose something good for myself. or something to sacrifies upon?

all i know now is:
i will be an ass tml morning in waking up when boyf calls=(

alright. goodnight. i better turn in early. To all exam taking peeps. stay cool and hang in there. dont stress(: it'll all be over soon. lucks.

i dont know if that someone still reads this space. if you do... oh wells. i dont know what i want to say. there's alot. yet.... HA! not important(:

PRECIOUS(: jia yous bahhs. i miss u hella:(

Claire

2010-02-07T21:23:00.004+08:00

my precious is working superb hard for his presentation tml. (some irresponsible jerks. Hatess)

but anyway.

JIA YOU MY BOY!!!!

I LOVE YOU LOADS AND LOADS!!!

:D

2010-02-07T21:12:00.002+08:00

One week left :D

Finally pulled through 23 weeks of ATP. one word. TIRING. inclusive of Dragonsea and stuff. almost went bonkers. alright. i did went nuts about everything.

nothing much to update about. except that i will be VERY busy the upcoming week. i cant wait for CNY(:

bought zillion of new stuff. thanks bf for the companion(: always love the way you did everything just for me^^ and and. u chose everything. thanks(:

Loves,
Claire

2010-01-28T17:05:00.000+08:00

time for another post..

been rather caught up with business lately. very stressful yet there's alot i learn. Maybe i didnt see money as important as before. maybe because i was well fed i was well taken care of by my mum. i never had to fret being penny-less. i worked very hard previously to earn a living. I always thought education, status level is of upmost importance. well. everyone change? i agree. boyf influenced me alot. maybe. afterall. this is my path. my fate. i always hated business. entrepreneus. oh wells. i ended up in accountancy. i ended up doing my own business. weird. life you can say. its nothing less easier to set up ones business. more to say make it an earning one. learn alot. but. still alot more to learn.

special thanks to boyf. being there. sharing every woes. consoling understanding tolerating. it hadnt been easy for both of us. but to work for a better future. to get moving on in life. to be independent. thanks for always being so understanding. so tolerating. i always thought it was luck in having you. not like before. i took most things for granted. always that wilful that ME me. well. i dont regret what i have chose. humans. live for themselves. even between lovely couples. even between families. i understand alot. i met alot of ppl. even though many years of my age. But definitely it was great. i learnt alot thru them. i grew. i ended my Fairytale dreams. i walked into reality. no one detest fantasy. no one disbelief in dreams. but if you want to achieve them, you got to walk through reality.

rights. putting all this life learning aside. on a happier note, internship is coming to an end. i was glad about how i did. people around me are really nicee. hopefully. everything will come to a perfect ending. even though as much as i hate doing this internship. i would say. i learn alot. learnt about life. about the society. about who's true to me and definitely about friendship. complaining. comparing. maybe it wasnt a really good choice to do both. But well. i guess. people can be ur good fren ur Best fren even. but its hard to come by one who will give up for you. its silly of me to think so. well. like i say. i got out of my lala land.

hopefully, this rebirth of claire. will bring me a better future. a better start and definitely a better life. OH god. why am i degrossed into this again. OKOK! once after this internship ends. i will be enjoying 15 full days worth of CNY:D but well. i haven got any new years clothes yet. HAHA! who cares. my wardrope is getting out of hands. and i cannot manage to put in more anyway(: time for some giveaways. going for a stay at CVH during CNY with boyf. a relaxation day and belated valentine celebration. coming up would be HK getaway with BF. hopefully. everything will be niceee. and i'm waiting for tarties and cliques' grad trip. OH YEA. not forgetting prom. looking forward. but. time to earn enough bucks for spending(:

then again. will be back soon hopefully.

take care folks.

Claire

2010-01-10T23:54:00.000+08:00

ah ah!

I WILL BLOG SOON.
THERE IS SO MANY SO MANY THINGS I WANNA BLOG!!!

claire

2009-12-10T15:36:00.016+08:00

a long awaited post.

well. i know i haven be blogging diligently. so here i am. to do a little something for this lill space of mine. updates of events that had happened...

Night safari with bf
Went night safari with bf. it was scaryyyy YET totally awesome! i had loads of fun. the tram ride was our favourite^^ with all the animals soo near us(: i <3 the bambis. they so cutee. but stinko too. HAHA! bf was so afraid when we walk thru the dark forest. AND AND there was a part of the night animal show which scared BF! he stood up immediately. my boy^^
Accompany bf for NS medical checkup
BF had his medical checkup... acc-ed him to give him some moral support. for the jab. errr. blood withdrawal actually. hmm. with vin's bro and friend. acc him thru all the station except the last. guys all know is that freaking many MCQ quiz. i waited outside for at least 2 hours plus. HAHA! well. for him. i will^^ anyway. went to eat steamboat after that. its curry steamboat near vivo. not bad actually. but bf says its normal. well. but i liked it(:
Mint toy museum with lessie
ahh. after sooooo long. finally met les up. went mint toy museum for a tourr. which didnt lasted us for even an hour? HAHA. but i like those toys. some were REALLY cute. les couldnt stop laughing at them. SO HER! haha. hmm. OH YES. MINT toy museum.. so what were they made of? MINT! so whats MINT? if u know, its some type of metal. BUT LES. LESSIE CHNG. thought it was MINT. peppermint THAT kind of MINT! HAHAH! les ah les. buay tahan! anyway. as we were still early. we went cityhall for a walk. in mind to get a pressie for her mum cause it was her bday. but we came upon this booth. for writing the big white ball wishes. we completed one whole ball by ourselves. COOL EH!
Genting trip with bf and family
Went genting with bf and family. it was totally awesomeeeee!!! took lots of pictures. all thanks to cindy(: stayed indoor cause the fog was heavy for the first day. OH YA. I WENT INTO THE CASINO. heh. i scrape in la. entered the first time. but couldnt thereafter. HAH! on the last day. we were SUPERRRRRRR lucky. initially the fog was super heavy. but we were bold and went outdoor to play. and who knows. god was kind and cleared the fog. so we had fun taking some of thr rides. overall it was a great trip. and. thanks bf's mummy and daddy. for the trip and fun. thanks so much(:
Merry Xmas
merry christmas. AH. we didnt celebrate much. it was just me and bf(: time spent was niceee though. very loving indeed. i love him(:
Met the clique for mushroom pot
ah yes. met the clique on xmas day itself for steamboat. sorry that i chose the wrong choice. mushroom wasnt everyone's favourite:(( haa. but well. i had fun though. wanted to go somewhere after that but thanks to someone SMART. lost his way again. end up. we went to my hse to slack and alvin sent the rest of them home. ah. and where did we go after that? hmmm. i forgot. HAHA. but me and bf did went somewhere. forgot where. HAHA
One Year anniversary
was a simple celebration. thanks dear. its one year ald. time past FAST. thanks for loving me embracing me like always. caring and concerning me. always putting me first. and never quarrel and raise ur voice at me. thanks my dear. <3 went to sentosa for tanning. went to geylang for frog porridge(: ahh. i love frog porridge(:
night cycling!
met the clique up for night cycling. nt very exciting actually. tiring in fact. zee came along. HAHA. funny stuff happened. but well. not that bad after all(: esp with les and tian around. too bad derek couldnt make it. was rather disappointed actually.
Sentosa trip with bf(:
haha. went sentosa trip last week. went for some attractions. not that bad. and me and bf had fun. that was the best thing(:
supper at xin wang anchorpoint yesterday night
went supper at xinwang ytd night. ahh. fattening and sinful. BUT. had a really good chat with bf. it was great. i love bf<3

alright. picture time:

We went for all three rides(:

two special things for one year(:

AH! i like my hugeeeeeeee card(:

Frog porridge at Geylang(:

BBQ cum tanning day. alvin chua decided he should destroy my camwhore pics w/o fail

we two ate 50 satays. i'm getting fat. SHUTUP!

i change my specy(:

poor jumpy is sickkk. BUT she's still as adorable. and more with her clothes(:

Mint toy museum with les(:

random shots(:

i <3 this flower i've drawn.

my silly boy^^

ok. this went like this. bf went for medical checkup and the army mates drew an extra bottle of blood from him. in reason for him to give it to meee. LOLS! can u see it hanging there on my pinboard?

my surprise mac breakie with bf(:

night safari<3

i miss boyf.

Claire

2009-12-10T15:36:00.002+08:00

decide to give this space of mine a brand new look. heres something for a change(:

and i cleared some un-dones on my list(: perfectly happy today. except that the sun is so bright and nice. its a waste i'm not at sentosa. maybe this sunday or something(:

Claire

2009-12-06T20:07:00.002+08:00

december...

time flies. i have many left undone. very much undone... i need time. alot more time then i thought i do. i seem to have many many things to catch up with. but actually. no. in fact. more free then ever. just that. i sleeps earlier then i use to and its taking up alot of my time... a habit cultivated. not that easy to shove it away like that.

to update this space of mine. is what i want to do very much now. there's alot of emotion for me to string them into a sentence. i miss being online. doing all sorts of crap. like i once used to. awww. whats getting into me these dayss.. i wonder. i think its the attachment thats bringing me this way. AH! i'm still me i realise. the one who yearns for freedom. to fly. to move, to go wild. yes. thats me:D i am me. and i know i cant change this fact no matter how hard i ever try...

very much so that i wanted to further abroad. i know it is a decision i would never regret. many says. that will change. but i still strongly take my stand that i want to. its my dream. its my goal. i work towards them. i have many many goals. but this is one i definitely wish to achieve. could one please hold my hands. and walk with me towards this dream... i know he will(:

latest updates is night safari with dearest. it was wonderful. nothing beats having him beside me. yes yes. i'm so so falling in love. his him. his my boyy(: and 1yr anniversary is drawing near.. i want to spent it simple. to have a great night.

many things are lined up. project dues. meeting lessie. genting with dearest and family. CHRISTMAS!!! OH GOSH! toking abt christmas. i cant wait. it was always my favourite season. and it never fails to make me all excited. i am all well equipped to go on a christmas present shopping!!!

however, there is one thing missing... i dont know what issit...

OH WELLS! brighten up(: thanks boy for being here with me no matter what. i cant express all these gratitude in just one para. i bet it definitely cant express how much i wanna thank you. thanks for being so understanding. thanks for standing by when i tear-ed. thanks for being my boy, my man, my superhero. lovess you..

Claire

2009-11-27T22:10:00.002+08:00

its a long weekend...

its PH today. but i'm still back in office working OT. what hella? cause tax deadline is on monday. so i have more and more finals to rush out. however, its fun seeing the office the other way around. and my mentor OT till 1AM last night. gosh! imagine! and everything is pulling me away from my world. MY world. if u get what i mean. well. fact is, non cant be relied. and non is there for life. u have to work for it. put in effort. put in ur sweat. i sick and tired in working for it. in being the only soul giving out. putting in the effort. i wrote the email. but i've yet to sent. childish or what? i dont know.

this sentence came to me... god sent us down to earth to repent our sins. is that the truth? and if u have to work to live. then isnt life=work. and then, isnt it better to not live? oh wells. i dont know whats going thru that puny thing up my head. but i definitely know two major thing in my life is now pulling me apart from alot of stuff. "you chose this yourself".... quite true. however. i just merely stopped initiating if all realise. and just merely STOP INITIATING causes such a big change. i dunno what the heck am i ranting here. but i stressed up to my ass i swear. there'e two side of work i have to look after. in fact 3....

sometimes. i reckon the fact that giving up this much brought me alot too. like happy relationship. promising future. lovely bf. certain commitments. and eureka peeps. if i were the one who have changed and isolated.. why the heck can i still be so close with certain ppl? i dont understand this fact...

and i've come to know that... everyone plays a part in everything. if one puts in the effort and not the other. then there's no point and it wont bring u any ending either. oh wells. i get what sam mean by the bucket bucket thingy. its true in fact. but then and again... im not regreting my choice.. but i will work harder to bring back the past. i'm making an effort.... will the rest?

i miss jacq... she'll understand when she's around. she'll be here.. she'll tok to out. i swear she'll be the nicest around=( seriously, she is indifferent in some ways. jacq. u hear this? IMY!

Claire

2009-11-17T21:26:00.003+08:00

Time flies. and i'm walking on towards the age of 20. i've been feeling OLD recently. for some reason... maybe due to the things i can involve. and maybe once again, i am lazy to doll myself up. just so happen that i went on to friendster cause i am so bloody free. saw some of the few pics. i really wonder... time really flies. it shows below...

and this is when i just completed my GCE 'O'. still that XMM.

this is when i just started working waiting for poly admission.

and i had my curls. i was DARING last time.
last year end. still chio.
OH! MY BARBIE DOLL HAIR. ok. this is black and white, i had my bangs and it was blonde(:

i was EVEN PUNK! can imagine? i was so so so DARING. aint like now.. constrains
and this was this year? or last year end. oh. its last year end i suppose.

time really flies man! i was so daring last time know. OK. i got one more hairstyle which is not here. couldnt find any pic on it. it was when i had my black hair with red highlights. SUPER CHAO AH LIAN ONE! omg. flashing back. i was really really daring. can imagine. i changed 4 shocking hairstyle in one year itself. not 4 simple. cut abit, trim there that kind. is 4 MAJOR change. i know theres more kua zhang ppl around. BUT! god. its so not me now... time flies and i've changed. alot. in character wise in look wise. i've changed. good or bad? u decide(:

Claire

2009-11-05T09:02:00.009+08:00

HELLO! am back. heh! am gonna post photos only. so enjoy!

sam sam gave me this(: thanks sam fo the angel.

JAMIE (JDT) BIRTHDAY!
02/11 was jdt's bday. met her during dinner time and went cathay to celebrate. HOPE U ENJOYED IT AND LIKE ALL THE PRESSIES(: loves u loads, CMM

my boy looks sauve in this shirt!

and this girl that i adore!

my two precious

yours soon(:

we wore hoodies tgt(:

LAO PEI PEI!

Happy 10th Monthsary! went to our fav resturant again(: its realy nice and relaxing. more photos in his phone. will post when i kope over. fat hopes for him to upload.

Bun bun(:

Our bears bears in his room(:

Bear bear and bear bear

i've got a nake version of this. SO ACYL. u naughty. U TRY!

Sentosa tanning day(:

OH! we BBQ-ed also(: good life! the satay was FABS!

plus a bottle of fizzy drink. damm shuang!

NAH! my big fat round face. IMAGINE!

took alot more. but force to choose this cause he smiles nicely here-.-

in office. round enough also.

Claire

2009-10-25T16:57:00.001+08:00

clarification

i'm sorry if you're one of those who took up my previous post. it was just meant to be a joke because i was posting the pics. HEH! sorry for the unnecessary wooha.

lifes been busy. and i've got no mood to post about anything now. bye

claire

2009-10-13T23:04:00.009+08:00

engaged(:

yes, your eyes are not playing a fool on you. yes! am engaged to Mr alvin chua...

enjoy the photos below. it was a tiring day that day. but now. it seems worth it all(:

2009-10-11T23:01:00.005+08:00

an effort; a thankyou

this post is specially dedicated to those we played a part to hang that smile on my face during my birthday(:

very first of all. i want to give a very big thank you to alvin chua yu long, my boyfriend. thanks for all the effort put in. i recognise evry single bit of them. thanks for the necklace. i know it cost u a bomb. thanks for the time spent coming to my hse secretly to fix the desktop. i know it was tiring. thanks for the planning process. me myself does alot. i know how difficult it is. thanks for all the love care and concern. it was everything i could i asked for. everything i needed. from coming my hse secretly to fix the comp, surprising me at 12 midnight, chilling out at tanjong, huggings at merlion top, dinner at carnivore and the night spin home. thanks for being such a nice boy. i know we both cant promise each other forever. but i know too, we will try our best yea.

CDT & JDT. thanks for being two such wonderful daughters. thanks for being there for me. consoling me. espcially that one month w/o GDD. thanks the both of u for every single effort. thanks for the perfume, thanks for the surprise at twelve midnight with GDD! thanks for the frame card. it was totally beautiful. it was great effort i can see. thanks alot!

Lessie, Oht & Derek. thanks for the time we had tgt. thanks for the wonderful memories u guys created. thanks for the support u guys have gave me. w/o that, i wouldnt have pull through everything till now being a happy girl. thanks alot. u guys have never left my heart. and u guys will never. thanks for the SK necklace. i promise i will wear it(: thanks for the time taken to have the dinner with me. thanks alot for everything(:

Cats and Dogs. You guys were sweeeeeeet. thanks for the dinner tgt. thanks for the cake. thanks for the sweet balloon. thanks for adding to my book collection. i was really so so happy to see u guys. like i say. nt that attachment it nt good. just that i prefer u guys more than anything. i really really miss u guys alot. its sometimes i cant put in words. will email cats soon k(: love u all.

JACQUELINE. thanks for the call babe. i dont know can u see this. BUT. i still wanna thank you. it brighten up my day. TOTALLY! u know how i feel. i always sent u love mail. dont i? AHAH see u soon lovely. muacks.

Peiqin sis(: thanks for the call. like ur bro say. u seldom call ppl. so i felt really really honoured! have a safe trip there and enjoy urself! bless u^^ and i haven thank u for the help during his bday. thanks alot! love u.

YY chua and Kelvin chua. thanks both of u for the wishes on the dot. haha. thanks for staying up late to wish me. even though i know U GUYS WERE DOTA-ING. am i right. HAHA! but anway. thanks for the wishes and all the jokes u guys brought to my life.

Fatty sis. thanks for ur watch lar. haha. i really like it. thanks for being my maid. thanks for letting me bully. still i wan u to know. U ARE NICE KAES. tsk! *roll eyes* anyway. still i wan to let u know. i do love u and whenever u fall. i will be there to pick u up cause as long as we live, we run the same blood. love u(:

Jumper. thanks for being such a nice dog. and thanks for unwilling to say happy birthday to me:( why cant u just bark. HERN! haha. but u are a nice dog. i lovee u fluffy! maybe i shld rename u as fluffy big ear.. HOW HOW?

Sam old sam =P thanks for the card like always. even we seldom meet and even seldom chat. u never fail to make an effort to sent me cards on bday and xmas every year. and u know very well. i always look forward to it. and and. thanks for the keychain. its hanging on my key ald(: u are right. it suits me and i love it(:

Mozzi bro. thanks for that effort in meeting me to sent me my greetings. u always made a great bro but i dont deny the fact that U ALWAYS BULLY ME. but still. u are the best bro i could ask for! i said what i wanted to the last post. SO U KNOW HUHHH.

Weilong. thanks for ur shoe. thanks for the effort for drawing the whole shoe urself. ur art is still as fantastic as ever(: hmm. i've never tok to you for quite sometime. hope u are doing well. i heard from lessie u are working. hope its a nice job for u. do take care and bless u.

Thanks to all those who sms-ed me. those who wished me on facebook. u guys did hang a smile on my face and thanks to those we wished me for letting me know i was not forgotten(:

PS: i will add on to this list, after tuesday(:

Claire

2009-10-05T09:56:00.010+08:00

Birthday post.

haas! i shall finally make this effort to post it up. editing pictures is a damm whore! lol! yes yes. i am posting on bf birthday and mine. have edited the pictures. so that i dont need to upload so much. anyway. aint gonna crap abt it. anyway. ppl are usually interested in photos rather than words. oh well. i suppose MOST ppl do. cause I DO^^

so there u go...

Happy 19th to me(:

Happy 21st to bf(:

Claire

2009-09-27T02:10:00.002+08:00

i know i am suppose to blog about bf's birthday. but no no. not this post yet. something more emotional came about suddenly. been all caught up with work and bf recently. hardly had anytime for something else. so much so that i think i neglected my friends. well. i always told myself. if there are friends. maybe they would understand. but this came round to me suddenly. how many of them do REALLY understand? one by one they starts to drift off. one by one they stop contacing me. well. i am not regretting that i chose to spent all my time with bf. in fact. i love it. but. its disheartening to see. ppl around me getting less and less oblivious to my presence. and this made me feel bro is such a nice person really. matters how many times i rejected his meet ups. how many times i flew his aeroplane. and i literally mean it. last minute one somemore. how many times i didnt picked up his call. he NEVER NEVER gave up on contacting me. really. he never never lose that effort to at least text me. when i was bored in the office. he was there to cheer me up and gave me a lill encourage. instead of some "ah lah, as usual lah u" comments. well. i can't blame either. cause ultimately it was me who chose to give up all my time to bf. sometimes. i really dont know whether issit the right choice. but still. i never did regretted. cause alvin's really nice. but back to the same point. i feel kind of disappointed. especially. someone so close indeed....

Claire

2009-09-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

i know THIS IS SUCKY!

haha. ok la. i know i didnt come back here for i dunno how long. but very long i know. will blog a proper post this coming weekend. u should expect what is coming up(:

TGIF. tml is friday(: meeting bro. am a happy girl(: i wan my lollies.

Claire

2009-09-16T22:44:00.002+08:00

actually i didnt thought of blogging. am pretty tired alrdy. but happen to hit belle's blog and the song somehow motivated me to blog.

rights. been superr busy recently. spent my weekends wisely(: slacked with dear on sat. had a great time. went shopping on sunday. bought lotsa stuff. and head to dear hse after that. nice. monday was normal. met dear after work. dinner at his house and off to walk walk. nth much. tuesday was kbox with dear and family. fun(: dinner at botak jones after that. today. nth much. met dear at bugis. bought my stuff and drove back to dear hse. slacked and dear sent me home. shun bian see his dear dog.

been super caught up with lotsa preparation. i am excited. like superr. hope it turns out well. really. i put in 2 months of work. it better work.

Claire

2009-09-09T22:32:00.006+08:00

its been so long ever since i blogged. attachment has started. its so far so good. cant comment much here either. shall blogg abt batam trip.

it was a nicee trip. totally awesome. was boring. but cause i have dear with me. nothing seem so boring afterall(: well. certain stuff are just meant to be kept in our hearts. and this trip made me know very well how much dear love me. thanks dear. its great really. love u so much. MUACK!

days are counting down. dear bday is coming. i'm looking forward. and i am super happy. to know that you would love to spent that day with me. you will be overjoyed cause u have me. thanks my love.

This was taken when we were back from batam(: big bear an

Breakfast^^

teck and lionel

dinner^^

SHUAI BAH!

in our room.

Claire

2009-09-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

ahh. so not updated. soon soon.

2009-08-30T23:44:00.002+08:00

haven had any proper update. yes. yes. exam ended on friday. its the last exam for the whole entire of my poly life. the feeling was great. i had a great dinner after that too^^ met up with dear's friend after that. had supper at boonlay. fab chill out.

spent saturday with mr dearie. was suppose to watch movie. but cause we both were so tired. fell asleep=X till dinner time. had dinner. and slack ard. and homed. simple saturday(: today. spent the whole morning busy-ing. met dear and off to his hse. and then off again to his granny hse for kou kun. went back home around 5 plus. both of us fell asleep again. LOL! dear drove me to les house to pass her my document and then to batok for dinner(: HSH after that. even though this few days was spent simply. i kinda like it.(:

and. i am sick again. like wth:( sore throat. BOO!

ANYWAY! bye ALL(: am leaving singapore for 3 days. nothing special. to batam. whats special this time round is i'm going with Mr chua(: i suppose its gonna be 3 days of fun(: staying at nongsa^^ and whats better is we going for the photoshoot tgt(: cant. wait.

i love you dearrr. slp well. Muacks. see u later(:

Claire

2009-08-24T22:44:00.003+08:00

i know i just blog hrs ago. BUT I CANT STOP MYSELF FROM SHARING THIS!!!

i was missing bf hours ago. and bf. being a sweet bf. surprised me minutes ago. dear came up to my hse to surprise me with a whole big box of famous amous cookies!!! i swear he is the sweetest bf on earth! i was damm stressed. and gastric came over for god knows what reason. was complaining to bf over the phone when he finished gyming. so he came up to hang a smile over my faceeeeeeee(:

(:(:(:(:(:(:(: x 10000000000000000000000000000000000!!!!

thanks dear for the whole surprise. thanks for hanging that smile on my face. thanks for coming over all the way WITHOUT DRIVING to just give me a hug of comfort. thanks for the cookies to support me for tml's paper. thanks for being such a sweet bf. thanks for being mine!

can't imagine dear bused all the way here just for giving me a hug. he never never never LIKE bus-ing or taking public transport. dear. WO CHAO AI NI!!!

thanks my dear. its worth every of my effort for you. really.

muacks. i love you always!

loves<3

claire

2009-08-24T19:07:00.004+08:00

updates updates.

i had a fantastic week. no grumbles:D cause i had dearie with me every single day^^

audit paper is over. not a disastrous, not fabulous. u decide(:

after audit paper on friday. dear brought me to silver shell cafe for dinner. we had a great deal. there was a deal of one for one for UOB cardholder. dear had it. so we dined in for 52 bucks only(: buffet style FYI!!! super great great deal. chill around sentosa and went back to vivo to shopped around. dear got himself a haircut at jean yip too^^ saturday was tanning session with dear. i am not charcoal black. dun worry. HAHA. brought jumper too. i wonder whats the affection between him and jumper. ROAR! haha. they had fun. AND JUMPER KNOWS HOW TO SWIM. dear taught her. ok la. he did nth but threw her inside. so basically she knows how to swim ald. she was dammmmmmmmm cute! for that day only. minusing the part she pooed. =S recently, jumper sort of turned "cuter" cause mr chua was patient enough to teach her a number of tricks. now. not only she knows how to sit and shake hand. she also knows how to sit flat down and act dead. HAHA! PS: i taught her the BANG ok! whatever. i know credits still goes to alvin chua. cause he loves her more than i do=X HAHA! Sunday was CARWASHING day. spent the whole mornin and afternoon at dear's house. wash car! haha. it was kinda a family thing. me and dear washed beetle while sissy and kelvin washed accord. ok. sissy did helped in beetle too. HAHA! ended the whole wash ard evening time. WAS SUPER TIRED AND PEK CHEK! haha. dear was uber scared cause he said i sounded fierce. sorry baby=( i still love you. you know that. hee! dear sent me home to bath and back to his house to head out tgt for dinner. went marche for dinner. fab fab. me and dear was bloated. trip back was niceee. i fell asleep in dearie's hugg^^ everyone fell asleep except for kel and daddy. HAHA! thanks dear for the fab 3 days. even it was exam period. i enjoyed myself to the max! thanks dear for the company. looking forward next is the batam trip. no. before that is KBOX with queen on wed. love all of you. MUACKS!

i mugged today. super productive. i realise i am productive in mac. HAHA! cross my fingers and bless me. pull me through this week pls....

and. i miss alot alot alot of ppl. ESP my Dts. so long ever since i met them=( i miss lessie. i miss gyming with her. no. i miss the bathing part actually. HAHA! well well. i miss dear. i'm not gonna see him today. shutup! i know its just A DAY. but i missed him. BOO!

k. back to books. bye

we bought our bottles(:

i love my bear(: my big bear^^

Claire

2009-08-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

this is superrr SCREWED=( exam; aint exam. i feel damm motivation-less. i really really wonder how am i gonna pull thru this two weeks. oh sucks. this is seriously god damm irritating. i am worried. i am guilty. YET I AINT MOVING. :( motivate me. someone;somehow.

and i missed you. will do a mass update after exams. rather after audit paper on friday. BYE

Claire

2009-08-16T09:30:00.002+08:00

i swear i didnt shop for the past months. but my cupboard is falling apart. damm. there's too much UNWANTED clothes inside. i think i need to clear them sometime soon. mummy has been complaining she cant fit all my clothes inside. but still, i get superrrr eggcited when it comes to S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G. in fact, which girl's not?

exam is drawing near the corners. revision has started. but i'm ain't motivated. there's certain stuff thats is bothering me much these days. but i'm confident i'm definitely getting over it. breath in breath out breath in breath out...

i pray to god. let me pull through this stuffy period. 2 more weeks. just 2 more weeks. let this be easy for me. and let me take my final exam in poly with peace. let me excel. bless me. i pray...

this motivation to spill all my feelings over here is coming back again. i kind of fell down to depression for the last week. in fact. there's only one reason why i did. i've a pretty optimistic perspective towards all stuff except for one. maybe this is the one thats pulling me back....

well. i better hit back to those notes before i feels like slping again. will be back to update this space soon. and. please let that stupid thing come ASAP. i cant be like this anymore when exam is like freaking next friday.

Claire

2009-08-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

ROAR! my blog is SO NOT updated. i wonder how many still frequent here really. LOL! no time. projects were haunting me for the past weeks. it sucks. many many things went past and i am so not gonna elaborate on it. pure laziness. anyway. post some brief updated though.

am posted to ernst and young for attachment. well. i heard positive and negative about it. we shall see^^ hope its a pleasant journey though. went to conrad for dinner with dear's family yesterday. i had fun. thanks lovely.

had revision lec today. boring yet fruitful(: dear came to fetch me and then to his house. had dinner and off for a movie. just ended. yawn. am tired. shall do a proper update like tml? ok. maybe. haha

nights babe, hunks

claire

2009-08-04T10:00:00.001+08:00

i don't see this week as a good week either. ROAR! i think as long as i am still stuck in school, my life ain't gonna be good. SHUCKS! and i just have something i cant express in words. gosh! i hope today will be better. Bless me(:

Claire

2009-08-02T10:07:00.005+08:00

Happy 7 Monthsary / 8 Month ^^

well. it commence the end of our 7th month and the start of our 8 month(: thanks dear for everything. its wouldnt be so great without you^^

went back to sch early morning. headed to 504 to eat lunch with jacq and then to jp to do my secret mission^^ got dear a cakey and a card. I DREW IT MYSELF OK. nt really THAT nice but i hope dear like it. went to sentosa with Mr chua for a walk. enjoyed myself totally. and i could see mr chua did too^^ it was a great great day and dear. i love you alot alot alot TOO(: to the max really. HEH! well. pictures on the scroll.

it sucked totally without a good camera. thats how impt it is(: PHOTOSHOOT. cant wait!

Happy 7th Monthsary

Mr Shy(:

i love you^^

COULD U SEE THAT HIS MONTH IS EQUALVALENT TO THE HEIGHT OF THE CAKE?

our shoes. HAHA

i love that letter A on my neck

Claire

2009-07-29T23:35:00.001+08:00

ok. i have gotten bored over the stupid classic blogger skin. i think i shall revert back to this. i like it more suddenly(:

2009-07-29T23:24:00.003+08:00

while waiting for everything to be completed, maybe i should update this old shabby place.

dear came over just now. time was well spent. even though it was just to huddle together and chatted about everything under the big yellow sun. i like the time spent. its great how we could share every thought together. and thanks for all the assurance once again. i thought i needed that most maybe. lol.

i need to feel a lill more confident...

Claire

2009-07-27T19:29:00.003+08:00

kope this quiz from lessie's blog. IT IS OH SO TRUE!!! lessie will note her head vigarously when reading mine just like how i did when i read her's. HAHA. and i love lessie. monday's is always nice. feel comfortable and secure always with her around^^

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

yea. so much so that i hurt people's feelings at times. LOL!

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

i don't remember being together with a super handsome or sauve guy.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

i always believed in love at first sight. and always followed my gut feeling. this is me(: not so practical person i guess.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

its not really about being serious or not to me? its more like whether i really like or rather love that person(:

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

it really depends on whats the topic to study for...

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

WAH! all those who know me. my dream career varies from medical field to service lines. HAHAHA!

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

kind of... the old me. HAHA! maybe now i will consider elements like family, relationship. more practical stuff i guess. i've mature a lill in my decision.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

yea. actually sometimes i just feel sad and disappointed. but being such a stubborn person. i just wouldnt want to face reality and just create a fuss over it.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

WAH! THIS IS OH SO ME! yes yes. everyone who knows me jolly well knows that i am such a person. i can be hyper active this minute. but emo and paranoid the next. esp my bf. he should have a taste of it ald. HAHA. bad point bad point. time for a change(:

how u rate this? tag me to comment^^

Claire

2009-07-27T11:03:00.007+08:00

its a memorable sunday(:

did i mention anything abut saturday? hmm. teached a number of tuition in the morning. went gyming with les also. even though we spent most of the time in the toilet singing. we still enjoyed the bathing part MOST(: went home and slept all the way to the evening. dear came to fetch me and drove mummy to granny place. went to his house for steamboat. OH! went to sheng shiong to get the BBQ stuff for sunday too(: prepared the foods and stuff.

sunday morning was filled with tuition again. homed and rest while waiting for dear to end his work. went down to meet him at 2PM. over to his house to get the bbq stuff ready. went for a run with dear after everything was settled(: home and started BBQ. was pretty fun but i was damm bloated. like SUPERRR. talked alot with his mummy. haha. his mummy loves telling lotsa stuff. hmmm. went back to his room. waiting for him to bath and off to 504 and my hse. dear manage to teach jumper some stuff. DAMM GREAT. i failed for a hundred times can. so now what? am i ur GF or her? dont let the past repeats itself. hmmm. slacked and chatted with dear till ard midnight before he went off. always feel so worried when u drive home late night. LATER u sleepy and start off a 100. HOW?! u better rmb what u promised. esle u take public transport.

had a great great weekend. its always so nice having dear around. and what made me felt more assured was what u said in the car. thanks dear. for making me felt appreciated again. its somewhat a little more encouragement to me for perservering on. (: and i love the way we work hand in hand in the kitchen. even though i suck at certain stuff. i got you. next time u do the cooking ok? i eat HAHA. right cheeky monkey?

and i like the way your lips fell on mine. *hugs*

Dear with jumper

pull ups. time to train more. HAHA

jacq's notes. she loves me so much

haha. everyone fell asleep in lec. including me beside them. HAHA

beautiful collection of collon

our snacks for lecture. scary

with all my three girls(:

DOG loves destroying my pictures LEI! liew.

CLAIRE

2009-07-25T22:16:00.002+08:00

that marks an end(:

i didnt notice my previous post was the 500th hundred post of this blog(: looking back. i did own it for quite some time. and clicking the "older post" button made me start reminiscences the past. ESP XMAS. i wanted a good xmas so badly. i rmb, all the xmas i spent away was always superr fun. i can't help but love this festive season. its the only only festive season i look forward to so much! and i actually had one xmas wish made 2 years ago. on the xmas when i went through the toughest period of my life and when it was the greatest turning point of my entire 18 years living. i made a wish that on the year i turn 21, i would be able to spent my xmas in some snowing country. where snow will fall on my fingers, rain deer will pull the sleigh, and santa will sent me some pressie.

anyway. its kinda mark the end of this week. this bad long week. as u can see thru previous posts. this week aint anywhere good for me. i became so so paranoid over lill stuffs. aint tha usual me. well. but i manage to pull thru it didnt i? i certainly have to apologise to dear. for making a fuss over small stuff recently. thanks for being so understanding. so tolerant. you are a great BF really u didnt complain at all. and whats more is u felt apologetic. thanks dear. thanks for being so nice and so protective of me. thanks for all the assurance. its great really. i love you<3

well. that marks the end of this disastrous week. BYE IDIOT(:

life's gonna be great ahead. and thanks fanni wong. for that chat. esp that sms. it made me thought thru alot(: so much so that i've straighten my thoughts. though mentality cant be changed over minutes. but it definitely wil over days and months. i believe i can do it(:

oh wells. and my friends. i look forward to the buffet next week. with camwhore, best crapper, always so understanding and knew me damm well JACQ. mac mugger, slacker, 2 years worth of crapping history, always there for me BEL. and chao ah beng WL and QQ. and classmate. AHHH. best week ahead. BLESS ME<3

Claire

2009-07-25T00:45:00.002+08:00

i am suppose to be fast asleep right now. but i've got this sudden urge to blog a post. why? no idea. maybe its the time where emotion flows?

looking back and reflecting upon life. i can't really make up which decision made was right and which was wrong. there is always the pros and cons, rights and wrongs to whatever decision i have made. but so far. there is only one that i ever so regretted about.

can't deny; i committed much mistake back in the past. but thats also the point where i grew and learned more about life. till today that i am in NP. studying a course which i never thought i would be in. being together with this sweet boy which i never thought i would. i never regret coming this far.

he made me grew, he taught me how. he made me knew alot of things. learned and grew. he always put whats best for me in priority. he always places me infront of he himself. i have alot alot of things to say. to let him know. how much he meant to me. how much difference he made in my life. i went through a number of relationship. every each of them writes a book in my life. pieces up part and parcel of my memories. i've got loads to express. either i dont know how to. or its inconvenient to here.

my eyes are closing yet i have so much to reveal and say. maybe i just want him to know. its not about how long we had each other. its about the amount of quality time we had. i know i had you. always. and u know u have me as ever.

i just wan you to know, i love you. thanks for the memories. it is a great great relationship<3 thanks so much for everything done. you knew i'm always grateful for that. hang on there(:

Claire

2009-07-24T16:48:00.006+08:00

am currently alone at 72 lvl 3 again. my new hide out? NO! am waiting for mr chua to come. hmm. life's been a bitch. projects are piling. i am stuck with nothing else but project. just ended a project session which lasted from 11AM to 4PM. IMAGINE. great-.- finished AFA report. still need some touch up though. wanted to go gym. for some reason we couldnt enter. so i end up here all alone. jacq and bel ald.

on a brighter note. weekend is coming near. so much so anticipating; i dreads too. tuition; gym. endless work waiting for me to complete. where's that free holiday life? i yearn for it once more

sentosa; song of the sea; volleyball; tanning; camwhoring all this i miss so so so much. esp those sentosa tanning session with my babes. AWWWW. tell me its coming soon ladies. i got so much to tell; so much to say. so much to share. u all i know i have my endless topics. oh those dayss.....

stop the pretense; its kinda irritating.

which one looks better on me? PS: lessie. no no. i haven cut my hair. its either u see this tonight and sms scold me. or tml mronign u see me. u will kill me(:

Claire

2009-07-22T12:28:00.002+08:00

this old shabby left out uncared blog of mine. its time to come back and clear some webs and fill it with more memories. HAHA. ok. weeks passed have been hectic. projects projects and still. projects. july aint a good month. an unwanted month. i hate JULY. it sucks always. its sucks cause its the start of a new school term in sec sch days. it sucks in POLY cause its hitting near exams. and it sucks cause its in the middle of no where. no festival no nothing. AWWW!!!

recently, i'm always stuck with deep pondering moments. i worried too much. i become a little too paranoid. i feel un secure at times. somehow. i reflect back and got reminded about that confident and free self years ago. and where did she go? maybe that accident 2-3 years ago did make that very great impact on me and that i understand what is no one is perfect.

maybe its time i should build up some confidence and move a step further in life. its another say 40 plus days and i'm gonna be steping into the society and face all sorts of obstacles and politics all by myself. i am always confident that i am good in terms of interpersonal relationship and facing such politics. i feel there will always this down side of me. i cant predict how future may come by but i believe its gonna be a rocky path for me.

it sucks to know and gets super frighten about certain stuff. but i believe i should grow strong enough to curb all these and i cant afford to break down cause everyone is pinning their hopes on me. i dont wan to disappoint any.

final reports, exams, study breaks. and it sucks even more to know. i will be having my papers when darling is having his first week of break by then. i curse sometimes why are we taking a different path.

what more can i get being in year 3? it sucks totally.

just tell me you love me. appreciate me. and let me know you cared. thats what i need most i guess.

AIYA. it sucks uploading photos using NPNet. its damm slow. anyway. i dont have any photo for recent. only those long ago ones. it goes to blame not having a camera. maybt i should get a proper one. photos are important. i wan to have fun. i wan to play. i cant setle down. i wan endless of fun. shit=(

CLAIRE

2009-07-15T11:30:00.003+08:00

i feel like blogging yet i dont know what should i blog about. damm paranoid. yes. recently i have been damm paranoid and i have been using this hella kuku word alot. in AFA class. am suppose to pay attention BUT i am not. just merely drifting off like usual. feels guilty yet dont wan to care. ok shutup claire. u aint going anywhere. HAHA

there's alot i wanna ask. i wan to be answered about... maybe i just need some assurance. awww. sucks.

i miss ACYL. ain gonna see him today and it makes me feel a little weird.ROAR!

Us and PQ

the whole clique of us.

Claire

2009-07-14T17:46:00.003+08:00

Can i just do a shout out that: THERE ARE MORE LOVELY PEOPLE ON EARTH!

had dinner with vin, DTs and Peiqin (dear's sis FYI). had real loads of fun. with that two with me. i always feel safe, feel wanted, feel happier. ok. i know chua yu long is gonna say: WHAT ABT ME. yes yes. feeling with u is different. dont worry. whats more impt then u?

waited at 72 lvl 3 with DTs for mr chua who came an hr late. -.-" i was so so so HELLA WORRIED he met an accident again. ROAR! well. he was safe and fine :D

drove to JJC to fetch PQ. then off to taman for dinner. i had fun laughing at my dear pigeon. she fills me with laughter really. even though sometimes her action is untolerably FUNNY. but it somehow reminds me of myself. HAHAHA. to les: u have a duplicate with me here. jam jam. she is just like u. HAHA. u would so so wanna know her. HAHHA

drove the three girls home and dear actually wanted to go watch movie cause he wanted some time just for the two of us. but coincident happens. his mummy called and was happen to be at JP also. so instead we went to met her mummy to eat supper. HAHA. ok. his mummy ate. not us. HAHA chatted at fei xiong with his mummy and the sent me home(: thanks mummy and dear :D to that boy of mine: dont feel so sorry and sad ok? we have the time in the world. there's always another day. right?

AH AH. why am i saying so much when i'm seeing him in another say half an hr time? HAHAH. IMY!!! anyway. sch today was on a note sucky yet lively. ah ah. tributes to queen ok. yes yes. i damit lar. u cheered me up. u did(: even though i felt like vomiting, u manage to make up that smile on my face. and lec was a total bored. maybe cause i add too much titbits and QUEEN SAID I USED 255 BUCKS TO BUY A TRASH BAG. dammit. she said that my agnes b look like a trash bag. cause i simply dumb EVERYTHING inside. anyhow. HHAHAHAH. les said the same thing too, BUT SHE DIDNT SAID TRASH BAG. soooooooo hurt~~~ QUEEN! HAHHA. sorry girls for the foul mood today. i felt super worn off. tired maybe.

getting a lill more paranoid recently. maybe i should learn something from les. which is to only love those who love me. and not EVERYONE. it does makes a difference. like what lessie says. what for love those who dont love u? so much time ar? she taught me something new today. very much. love her. that loads. she made a different. she brought me a new chapter in life. she accompanied me through times of ups and downs.

i may not mention every single things here. i clealy know who was there and who werent. in period of the darkest path in life. when i get super paranoid. i knew. who was there. to walk and to console me. i may not be the greatest person on earth. i cant be that very perfect BFF if yours. but i definitely will be the one who love u truly. who treats u truly. who rmb clearly.

its been really long since i blog such personally stuff. and to note. i remember:

the girl who accompanied through my lower sec path. whom walked home with me every single day. who sat with me in the canteen after sch for at least 3 hr to see me cry like mad dog cause i did badly (pass though) for my math test. for changing me to adapt to YHSS cause i was a transfer. who i drifted apart from after we went to upper sec and i was too involve in CCA. who i was glad. i still have her around me now. who i am glad still love me as ever. i want to let her know. i love her. forever. i appreciate wat she has done so far. and even though i always never mention abt this. it was kept deep down there(:

and the girl who was not on good terms with me initially. who always love to ignore me cause she was angry with me. who was the first person i dare to confront and talk out with her. who always turn to me when she had trouble. who i had the greatest secondary sch memories with. who i always felt like protecting. who i know very well. love me for who i am. we went thru alot. very much ALOT. from disliking each other to loving each other. and i am glad i have her now. and i am glad. she is here with me. god bless her always(: i wan her to know. she was the best gift to me. she was the one. who thought me alot of things. she was the one. who created a different me.

and lastly. that girl who i didnt even tok to in sec sch become my BFF. who even though we always quarrel and exchange stupid faces. who i always turn to when i didnt know what to do and she wont give me that constructive comments. who was there for me when i needed her. even in he middle of the night like 3AM. who i created great memories with. who i would never be who i am now w.o her. i want to thank her. for al the tolerance for all there care love and concern she gave. even though sometimes i dont express my thoughts. even though sometimes i would suan u like no one biz. u know very well. how much u stand in there. i love u always.

knowing this 3 girls was the best thing on earth. i never had such great pals. and i wan them to know. i never took them for granted. i want them to know. they are my girls. forever on.

soon. i know someone would be as impt...

Claire

2009-07-13T09:21:00.005+08:00

its gonna be a long post. MAYBE NOT. hahaha

yes. yes. Mr Claire's Alvin is BACK. saturday and sunday was all spent with him. i just threw aside every other one and spent time with him. it was great great GREAT. that moment i saw him at the airport. i heave a sigh of relief. i was glad. he was back. safely. H1N1 didnt find him. No injuries found him. except maybe he sprained his ankle. other than that. everything was fine. (: i couldnt describe the feeling i had at the airport. its like as if going on a first date with him. my heart thumped like mad. daddy mummy drove dear me and DTs home. ate dinner at dear house. specially prepared for him. HAHA! fatass. Kelvin pass his driving. Congrats. Cindy had her graduation ceremony. Congrats. it was a triple happiness for his family^^

Dear drove us home. Saturday morning. went gym as usual. stayed back and did WISP project which Fucked me out totally. my PPT went shutting down before i could even had a chance to saved it. AND BY THEN I WAS EFFING DONE! dammit. whatever. went to dear's house after i went home to bath. steamboat. HAHA! slacked and Mr chua wanted to play jumper. so came over to my house. met the clique at 1130PM. lionel teck johnny jo huiting shujian hanwei was there. they wanted to go chomp chomp but end up the drivers voted for newton circles. HAHA! dear and me didnt ate cause by then we were bloated by dinner ald. HAHA. so it was kinda lame for us. after that voting decided we go mt faber. WHICH WAS THE LAMEST BY FAR! haha. but hanwei was a joke luh. HAHA! had a great time with the whole clique. even though i wasnt that close to them. non of my clique around could do that. first. my two dear brothers havent pass they driving, dun even think of driving out three cars like that. HAHA i'll wait for someone else to pass BETTER. HAHA. and by the time we homed, it was 4AM when i lie on my bed. it was great. thanks.

PS: i gotta thank lionel and teck for that weekend when everything was not right. Thanks(:
PSS: and my two lovely daughters too. they're just fab ppl<3

anyway. SUNDAY. HAHA. my piggy slept till 1PM u imagine. i become an early sleeper and waker when he was away. i woke up at 11AM even though i slept at 4AM. HAHA. did projects and tie up some loose ends before eating some brunch. dear came over to fetch me and off we went to his gran's house. chatted and sat for an hr or so? headed to his aunty house. haha. had fun listening to all the stories. they are funnyppl. really. joyous some too(: after that his house and went out with his family to tung lok for dinner. I WAS SUPERR BLOATED! dear was too. HAA. kelvin drove us. he was super cute. HAHA! after that to my house cause someone missed jumper more then me. HUMPT! went online to do some proj after dear left. but stupiak comp failed me. i think cause it was too hot. keep blue screen. damm..

its gonna be a long day today. its gonna be fun(: with JDT AND CDT. and i'm starting to look forward to gym. time to cut fatssssssssss.

thats me. in the dress my lovely boy bought. thanks dear. but dont spent so much anymore K! rahh. i am shopping smart. dont think i dont know how much. plus bear bear. RAH!

i love this boy of mine. he made me missed him for one whole month. how nice.
i was straw heart infested!
and yes i bought a new dress again. HAHA

here comes the main reason i am bloggin today:

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY AH HUI

Happy 19th birthday girl!! may you be bless with everything anything under the big yellow smiling sun(: blessing you with happiness love joy and laughter. We may have many unwanted stupid comments between us. i love you THAT MUCH TOO<3>

even though i only had chance to know u better when we were in poly and almost all recently. i never never regret. even though we may nt be BFFs but i definitely treasure u as one. as someone that impt that i hold in my heart. even thought we dun share heart felt thoughts. even though we dont even meet that often. i really got to thank les for leading us to today. i would never know u that much. i would have miss this chance of knowing you. i would miss the chance of knowing, who cared more. i know very well how this friendship is but by any way. i would love love to go out with you like how i go out with les. shopping chatting camwhoring slacking. its all that simple. friends are there. and so i am here. anytime. 24/7. like how i am there for les. i am for you. stay sweet dear. you know very well. we love you. that very much.

may this friendship go on and may i just leave my trust with you. that this will go on. and that. you'll be that gret person ever(: I LOVE YOU HUI! you'll stay there. and there in my heart. meet up soon! take care in the meanwhile. loves loves<3

SHOUTOUT TO FRIENDS: no no. i didnt forget u all. still rmb u guys. still have u all in my mind. BF is impt so are u girls. w/o any single one of u all. i wouldnt be me today. i am grateful thankful. i love you girls as EVER<3>

SHOUTOUT TO DEAR: stupid boy! haha. hang u on ur ears! rahh. i missed you. see u ltr. thanks for these two days. it was the best of that one month definitely(: i love you... and let this go on(:

Claire